electric brain dump

Something I just realised, while I see different posts saying people wish they could go back to (insert time in their childhood) I really never feel that.

There are different aethetics and fashions that I enjoy seeing again, or maybe being able to re-experience the early days of being online but overall childhood was not a carefree, fun time for me - it was filled with anxiety, bullying, and different types of traumatic experiences. It's not something I look back on and think of as being carefree and fun.

I wonder if that's the same for other neurodivergent individuals or just in general?

Also wondering how long I'm going to grieve this now that I realise it.

Apr 5 at 5:40pmWeb
Show threadDror Bedrack4d ago
@electricbraindump
I sometimes have a fantasy of going back and this time doing it right.
Show threadelectric brain dump4d ago
@DrorBedrack interesting. I still don't think I'd figure out what doing it right means, even if I am sure there would be things I would do differently. Maybe if I could do it again but just not give a f*ck this time?
Show threadDror Bedrack4d ago

@electricbraindump maybe that's the trick. What about going forward?

I think I have better coping mechanisms, skills, and knowledge now. But would that help as a child? Dealing with other children, and adults who will see me as a kid?
It's a short fantasy.

Show threadSecCatHerder4d ago
@electricbraindump no way I would go back to childhood. Maybe some time in my late 40’s.