what we thought we knew about autism and... whatnot
'For decades, researchers had been measuring the wrong thing. Conflating communication style differences with empathy deficits produced dramatically inflated effect sizes and an illusion of empathy impairment'
@oscarjiminy I literally cried reading this. I’ve been made to feel bad about me in one way or another my entire life.
I’m tired. So, so tired.
But so happy what I am is finally being recognised and actually seen in a meaningful way.
@oscarjiminy and, as is my wont when I look again at the sad situation of my upbringing without such validation and understanding, last night was filled with allegory-filled (bad) dreams featuring my family. First time in 2-3 months I've dreamt about them.
This time, the overall situation seemed to be represented by a badly leaking roof in our family home, which my parents were unable or unwilling to take the effort to fix, while loud chaos went on and I tried to literally curl up in a ball in plain sight to avoid being interacted with, as I had to emotionally do in that environment to attempt to avoid harassment and abuse.
At one point I just said out loud “why don’t we just sell the house?” – which I take to mean just get rid of the whole structure of our family and try to start again. As a child I wanted to do that, and it never occurred and thought patterns and groupthink continue to this day, so I've just “left that house” by not speaking to any of my 7 siblings (our parents are dead – if they weren’t, I wouldn’t be speaking to them, either).
I know I’ve had a bad night's sleep when my watch thinks I was active for over a minute in a number of hours throughout the night – at least I have 3 of 12 hours ticked off *that* goal for today!
Look for the positives, eh?
TinDrum
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