DiaryofaFloppingFishMar 16
Check out this newly skinned older post on healing from truama, and not sitting in your pain https://www.diaryofafloppingfish.com/post/don-t-sit-in-your-pain-advice-on-healing-from-emotional-trauma #healingjourney #mentalHealth #cptsd #grivingtrauma
Show threadsero one infinityMar 16

@Diaryofafloppingfish I'm getting a HTTP 500...

EDIT: nevermind, works now.

Show threadsero one infinityMar 17

@Diaryofafloppingfish
"I find myself grieving my dreams, whatever my potential could have been, the person I used to be, things I used to be able to do, shows I used to love to watch."

Yes, this is on point, and it hurts. There's no point in what-if games, they say, but I'm not asking for a lottery win! All I want is a "normal" childhood, it would have been an incredibly different life - but it's all gone now, and even though it's not my fault, I am the one who pays for it, every single day.

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@sero_one That's true. When I was in CBT we worked a lot on what they call "radical acceptance" which is the idea of accepting that the bad things did happen, it's part of the past and then making way for what comes next. I have learned to accept that the shitty things in my past happened (at least some of them) and instead of morning what could have been if they didn't, I embrace the strength that it gave me.
Mar 17 at 4:19pmWeb
Show threadDiaryofaFloppingFishMar 17
@sero_one Bad things happened to you, but that isn't the end of your story. In fact, the bad things that happened might even be important to shaping you to who you are know who is able to do something great. It's all about getting to post-traumatic growth and a shiny new you even if you might be a little rough around the edges.
Show threadsero one infinityMar 17
@Diaryofafloppingfish Thank you. I want to believe you, but surely you understand how it can still feel far off. I have a very good therapist now (finally!) so at least I'm making some progress, but you can't fix horrible decades in a few months... 🙏
Show threadDiaryofaFloppingFishMar 17
@sero_one I used to think that the goal was fixing, but my opinion now is that we just make ourselves something new. It takes time to figure it out, but you'll get there. Maybe I will too someday.