Even if I did find a partner, at this point anything we did would just be frustrating and disappointing. And maybe you're into that, because there's lotsa ways to have sex, but fuck you. If you held out on me my whole life when I desperately needed you, just because you only care about whether you feel good, I can't love someone like that.

So that's why I wish everyone would die, because you're wonderful people who deserve to live, but you'll create more of me. With your loving supervision, and your safety, and your obsequious inclusivity, everything will only be nice and polite just as you wanted, and now someone else will have to suffer, because those urges don't go away. They're just pain now. Just pain...

#rant #depressed #FuckMyLife