Mastodawn

undead enby of the apocalypse Jul 25

i'm not sure how we're all supposed to keep going

do i post pics of cute sculptures
or lament a genocide
poems about cats
or rage about poverty covid genocide again billionaires ecological devastation AI racism bigotry hate

do we wake up in the morning and think that the world is full of magic and possibilities
or stumble weeping towards doom because hey we still have bills to pay

i increasingly feel like it's all of the above, but i don't really think the brain/heart/mind/soul are built for that

i really don't think we are built for this

Stéphanie Jul 25

@moonrabbit I've been having the same thoughts 💜 I think it's important that we find little pockets of beauty, but we also can't ignore everything else. So exhausted

@stephanie same friend, same

but yes. because without those little pockets, what is there to keep us going? (which begs the question why are we still going, but then someone / some people have to keep those sparks alive. because that's ... what we're for ... )

AudhdDespiteNoisyAbleism 🇨🇦Jul 25

@moonrabbit Same for the little pockets, because you know how it’s especially difficult for us autistic to deal with everything happening. 🫂❤️

@adelinej
ooh yes, you're very right 🌿

Ari "Two Naps" Jackson Jul 25

@moonrabbit Same. It doesn't matter how diligently I work on my own little corner of the world. I still wake up mentally exhausted every day. I figure finding little pockets of joy and awe (usually at the natural world) are the only way we will make it through.

@arisummerland yes. and they're among the reasons why we keep wanting to make it through too. reminders of what's worth saving, worth staying for

@moonrabbit As well as saying 100% same - I was talking about exactly this with a few different people yesterday - have a look at this, which is kinda a mix of both things.

https://syzito.xyz/@fkamiah17/114913807039410645

MiniMia 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁷󠁬󠁳󠁿 🇵🇸 (@fkamiah17@syzito.xyz)

Attached: 1 video This is from Wimbledon earlier this month 💖 ✊ Afaik he was there every day. #FreePalestine #SolidarityIsBeautiful

Syzito.xyz

@MiniMia bless him ✊

i've really been struggling to participate on here, partly due to my own stuff, but also just. what. i don't know.

how're you?

@moonrabbit I've been barely engaging at all on my other account tbh. I had a scroll through my protest feed elsewhere, which cheered me up, because there's been LOADS since Wednesday, all over the place. Five in New York alone!

I'm good (the Everything notwithstanding). Still unmotivated on the gardening front but I'm going to have to face it soon 🤣

However, today I chose riding, baking and a nice long walk 🧁 🐎

What's going on over there? Did you have any luck with the tshirt?

@MiniMia good on them. i hope it all comes to something. fast.

your plan for the day sounded lovely, i hope it manifested.🌿 what did you bake? 😋

i've not long finished work/eating and am exhausted, but at least i've got barely anything to do work-wise tomorrow now.

no shirt luck, no. partly because my second attempt with a second-hand watermelon one failed (why do people list things for sale that they don't have?? the site gives full refunds, so it's not even a scam), partly bc i haven't had time/money to look for anything else. the other day's glasses expenditure (mostly but very much not all covered by insurance) threw me into a panic about money as well, so i'm a bit 😬 about buying anything that isn't absolutely essential, esp as husband might need glasses too. and i need pyjama trousers: my last pair has just disintegrated. but i'll see what happens after all of that.

v glad it's the week-end anyway; this week has been far Too Much.
you (park) running?

@moonrabbit It was a pretty ok day, as it goes. I did go riding, had a forage, got some eggs from the farm, made some bread and a rhubarb and ginger cake. Yumminess

Roll on a do almost nothing Saturday 🙌 - do you have treats? Lots of tea and general loafing about being cosy, I hope

Oh, what a pita! People are such pricks sometimes

Can relate! Got my last trip of the year coming up in early September which has turned into an Event (and therefore substantially more expensive ) than originally planned.

It's much better, in the end, to be able to see 😂

Yep, tomorrow is walk/run/march as always. I don't want to think about it right at this minute 🤣

BashStKid Jul 25

@MiniMia @moonrabbit Good weather for riding?

@BashStKid @moonrabbit Pretty perfect weather as it goes, yeah 💚

@MiniMia idk, now i wish i had spent the money on a holiday instead of vision 🤣

no treats for tomorrow, alas, although some might manifest. and i've just had plum crumble, so i think i'll be ok

anyway your day sounds Most lovely, and i'm glad it happened to you. and i hope you get good sleeps to prepare you for the things tomorrow that i won't mention at this time to save you having to think about them at all 😂

i just have a hair wash to negotiate and then

have a good one and a Most Excellent morning

ablobcatheartsqueeze

leguinian_utopia Jul 25

@MiniMia @moonrabbit I love Fine-Apple

@leguinian_utopia @moonrabbit A drastically less expensive version of the Amuseables, which I'd basically buy *all* of if I had unlimited funds 😂

leguinian_utopia Jul 25

@MiniMia Did you make Fine-Apple?

@leguinian_utopia I did not.

Which is kinda shameful when you think about it. It really can't be that hard 😂

@MiniMia so cuuuuuute! is it yours? its lil face is so affirming!

@moonrabbit Yes, it's mine - he lives on my desk

https://beige.party/@MiniMia/114912572018425185

Mia (@MiniMia@beige.party)

Attached: 2 images @Heliograph@mastodon.au I've got one of those who lives on my desk 😄 🍍

beige.party

@MiniMia what a lovely home for him!

Em-squared Jul 25

@moonrabbit I feel, for those of us so affected by the world and its nastiness that we do have to almost set boundaries around ourself and create our own worlds, our own sub-cultures just to get by. It isn't easy but we have to protect ourselves, reward ourselves and help where we can.

@emsquared @moonrabbit It’s such a struggle. I see everyone feeling this. We’re stronger than we think too - the good things seem all soft and squishy but they are resilient and so are we.

@Janet_52square @emsquared

squishy things are the best. i have bunny and it's very squishy but i'll bet not much would get past it

@emsquared
although i think that protection gets more difficult the more things one is dealing with on a personal level (in addition to the global). for me, anyway.

how're you feeling this evening?

Aurin needs💸

@moonrabbit
💚💚💚🫂

taichara Jul 25

@moonrabbit It is, alas, all of the above. Yep.

i figured as much. sigh.

buffy leigh (she/they)Jul 25

@moonrabbit what I feel every day 💔

Thee Mighty Peculia Jul 25

@moonrabbit Maybe if I were younger and stronger, but alas. It feels like being mentally and emotionally sandblasted. It wasn’t supposed to be like this.

@lydialurch it really wasn't

eclectech Jul 25

@moonrabbit hard agree on all that, it's exhausting & depressing, but a tiny bit of hope in the number of people who agree, maybe

@eclectech yes. as awful as it sounds, i'm glad lots of people are miserable 😂

eclectech Jul 25

@moonrabbit Hahaha! Put like that it sounds slightly less hopeful, but aye, that's the sum of it 😆

BrambleBearGrrrauling Jul 25

@moonrabbit @eclectech

Misery is such a natural response to the whole effing mess the world is in right now. I don't know how to deal with it myself, but "it is said" that grieving is healthy and grieving together can help. Acknowledging all this shit seems necessary. Finding ways to continue to function is hard. I feel so stupid and helpless and angry to keep doing my job, but food and bills....

1/?

BrambleBearGrrrauling Jul 25

@moonrabbit @eclectech

2/? I wish there were collective spaces we could move to to meet basic needs together while spending bulk of our time and energy fighting all this evil shit and making world safe, just, kind.

Agree with a lot of replies. Both and. Cope as best one can. Do what one can.

Anyone with spoons, energy, capacity to be fully pissed off and fuel fight to stop harms, protect vulnerable, do that and Thank You!

BrambleBearGrrrauling Jul 25

@moonrabbit @eclectech

3/? Anyone with strength, courage, resilience to resist and build just care systems with Love~mad respect, gratitude, 🙏♥️♥️♥️

The rest of us can cry and rage and turtle and hold each other up while we stumbe and crawl and make food and art to share, as can.

Hopefully we get better at this as we go.

Art helps a LOT of folx hold on, get thru.

BrambleBearGrrrauling Jul 25

@moonrabbit @eclectech

More Howling at The Moon, en masse.

More cacerolazo.

More drumming together.

More making art together.

More planting, more tending, more growing food and medicine together and however we can.

@BrambleBearGrrrauwling @eclectech

not enough sponge today to reply properly to this, but just yes, thank you, very much appreciate/resonate/yes.

thank you

BrambleBearGrrrauling Jul 26

@moonrabbit @eclectech

🙏✊💜

🌱🌼🌱🌸🌱🌺🌱🌱🌳🌱🌱🌸🌱🌼🌱🌺🌼🌻

leguinian_utopia Jul 25

@moonrabbit I don't think either but we gotta do both. We gotta rage and spit, but we also gotta look at cute statues and write poems about cats (well i'm a dog person but yeah <3) The world is full of magic and possibilities, and we despair because those who try to take it away are also sending people to their doom. But the two are linked together: we need to remember that the world is a wonderful place so we can fight those who are trying to take that away

@leguinian_utopia so much

and dogs are good! i was raised by dogs, long story but

leguinian_utopia Jul 25

@moonrabbit I'm glad my words could help

sparkling_heart

We have an older dog, he was my first friend, I used to come home, sit by him with my arms around his neck and tell him about my day, cry when I got picked at in school, the like. Reading with my head rested on his back as he laid on his side when it was hot

That is the question for this time, I think: how do we keep going?

I don't have an answer. And I don't think that anyone does, or at least not one that works for everyone. We need to take care of ourselves, and each other, as best we can, but as far as online spaces go, it's too much, at times.

Personally: I take my meds, I work so that my partner and I have a home and so that I can help people, I learn as much as I can, and I try to figure out how to help people more. I ride my bike to keep somewhat mobile, and to clear my head, and occasionally, when my partner is having a good day, we can go for walks to enjoy being in a place with forests and a river and shops and architecture. Even more occasionally, we're able to leave the city and go somewhere quiet, although that's getting harder to do.

But I also despair. And enrage. And do not know how to balance it all.

Pardon the ramble; perhaps you might find something useful in this if you give it a good sift?

Addendum: https://youtu.be/dSGR4xWCqfo

Božo Vrećo - Lejlija

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@cthulku rambles most welcome. and thank you. i will sift indeed.

i hope things are ok in your world today

rednikki Jul 25

@moonrabbit One of the things I think about in moments like this is how focusing on fixing a small part of one problem makes bigger changes possible. Like: in the early 1930s, Monterey Bay was a disgusting, dying cesspit. Marine biologist Julia Platt became mayor of a small town on the Bay and created a marine reserve there. Apparently, that’s the only reason the sea otter survived. She could not fix all of Monterey Bay, but because she took action on a small corner of it, over time, other people were able to build on her work.

There were many other bad things going on at the time, and I’m sure people said “why aren’t you working on x problem instead?” She could not solve all problems, but she did fix a part of one problem, that led to bigger changes, and now Monterey Bay is a pristine wildlife sanctuary. (If you read newspapers from her time, almost no one thought that could ever happen.)

It is easy to get so overwhelmed by everything horrible (and there is so much that is horrible) that you no longer have the energy or willpower to work to fix anything. And social media makes us even more overwhelmed by bringing us minute by minute updates. But if we each nibble at one or two of these big problems like termites nibbling at a house, combined we can actually get somewhere.

Mary Starbuck Jul 25

@moonrabbit I've just spent about half an hour pondering and I have nothing 😩💜

@autoperipatetikos

Jessica the VI Artist🎚️🎹🌈Jul 25

@moonrabbit @alexisbushnell I think it’s all of the above. Not sure what to make of it either.

@JessicatheVIArtist @alexisbushnell

yeah. it's a bit ...

...

( / )

François, Kookaburra chill Jul 25

@moonrabbit that sums it all up beautifully, thank you 💚

@jaztrophysicist 🙏 💚

Sue Archer Jul 25

"stumble weeping towards doom because hey we still have bills to pay" is how I feel a lot of the time.

very same.

@moonrabbit
I should find a way to check whether I feed my brain with enough positive content every day.

The fedivers is a good place, but my thread is full of horror that are legitimately denounced.

Stingray's Badger Friend Jul 26

@etienneconteur @moonrabbit

Lists are a good way to get positive doses, fill them with the people who share only making stuff or only pretty photos. Just look at the lists if you're not in a strong enough space to see the metacrisis.

@StingrayBadger @moonrabbit thank you for the tips.
I do not know what à list is on mastodon can you please give me à link or an explanation?