Narrowling the range of acceptable behaviors has detrimental effects on human technological development.

Displeasure and strong objection to behavior variants may push people to object induviduals who may have new ideaologies within their minds, but due to their appearance or performance, can be supressed under peer pressure of modern day society, inventions and creations existing within minds of people who could help us prolong our lives, if only they were accepted. Instead, rejected.
2/?

Where do my thoughts come from? My experience a few weeks ago where a nurse was focused on getting me to behave a certain way that I could not do (lower my voice, hold my hands still) and finalized her job over me with jabs of hadderol (which make me restless, contrary to the nurse's belief it would "calm" me down) and put into a "hold" in a mental ward, meaning I had no rights to my own freedom, an alarm hidden in my bed if I were to get off.

Why was I put into that restricted hold?
3/?

Everything I was telling them was the whole truth and nothing but the truth, but due to my movements, and voice volume, voice pace, I was dismissed as a psycho, shoved into a mental ward, my autonomy denied.

I didnt hurt anyone. No touching them, tho they touched me, jabbed me with stuff I repeatedly told them not to give me anti psychotics.

This strict adherence to their wishes for specific behaviors i cannot do... is restricting the ideas I have in my brain that could benifit society.
4/?

Imagine if humanity treated Steven Hawkings according to his outward appearance?

As if he were a baby, wouldnt that nurse do so, like a baby, here is some diapers now be a good boy Stevie.

I feel treated like they see me as a baby, or as a demonic bully, neither being true, both being demeaning to my potential.

I have so many ideas, but i cant bring much of these ideas to life because of the restrictions put on me based on how someone else perceives me.
5/?

I dont want people to misjudge me.
Most people have misjudged me.

I spent the first thirty years of my life trying to do the things people tell me to do, what people expect me to do, trying and trying I did to find that place where I was not treated like a freak, like a weirdo, like a defective human... I tried and tried, but I could never reach that level of an even plane with people my age.

I hated myself for thirty years.
I am 47 now.
What changed?
I stopped ignoring/supressing myself.
6/?

Accepting me as I am, following what I like, avoiding what I dislike, and having a strong solid grounding to reality since I was two years old... I am not, in no way, a psycho.

Nurses have labeled me with so many wrong diagnosises, and just in general when people are service providers, they tend to not believe a dang word I say, especially in health care. This assumption of dilusional/malice perceptions of me, has been a frequent perception, and has never been true.
7/?

But eh, nurses, go on and keep labeling people psychotic and paraboid, why do this at all huh? Do you get paid for every human you get put into a mental ward? What is the deal with this locking up of people who dont perform like a perfect obedient standard normal person...

How much potential is being locked up/silence/eliminated because they cant speak the speak that nurses seem so obsessed with.

I asked for communication in writing. I brought pen and paper.
8/?

She refused. Continued to focus on speech.

What if Steven Hawkings was presented to her, and he could not speak for her. What then?

Why is using a mouth with a tongue and all these fine motor control things.... so damned important?!

Not allowing non-speech forms of communication is hindering human progress.
9/?

Dammit.
And they think I'm obsessed? How about them and their obsession with speech.

I communicate a hell of a lot better in writing. My speech controls have been insignificant in comparison to my hand controls.

I have been locked up in mental wards many times,, tackled by cops, strapped to gurneys, drugged with antipsychotics without my permisson... WHY?!?!

Because my speech is unacceptable to them.
10/?

@GreenRoc

That would indeed be a difficult difference to navigate. Our societies do rely on speech to indicate - communicate - mental state, capacity, and intent.

It might be preferable to self-identify as "mute" and then rely on a notepad or something more creative to allow you to communicate in the fashion that is effective for you. Since you don't have Hawking's physical limitations, you have more choices.

@VulcanTourist I struggle to shut up.
"selectively mute" is the first thing on my list of medical history.

Edit to add: I did try to rely on a notepad but she wasnt acknowledging what I wrote.

I needed her to write back to me, she never did, she would not stop interrupting, and being upset with interrutping, and dammit if she would just use writing.

@VulcanTourist Paramedics strap my hands down to a gurney so I cant exactly write when they are asking me questions like "what year is it?"

took me over ten minutes to recall the answer to the question. My cognitive skills were severely impaired like the last three times I had stroke-like symptoms.

@VulcanTourist She was also vehemitely insistent I did not move my hands around, she referred to it somethin like, "thrusting [my] hands towards [her]". I had given thumbs up as I was trying to communicate her accuracy and inaccuracy when she was speaking about me.

She told me that she has a son with autism to expressed that she "understood", which she really did NOT understand how to accept autism. Instead, tried to supress my autism, ordering me to not move my hands.

She put off ABA vibes.

@GreenRoc

Face-to-face self-advocacy is often hard for those of us who are divergent.

@VulcanTourist Indeed, and when the recipient is a nurse who has an autistic son.... already with a head full of ideas to supress and boss around autistic people, as if she was into ABA.

Nothing I said registered with her in the end. She marked me off as paranoid and psychotic...

Which I have to wait for an appointment in July with my psychiatrist to wipe that BS dx's off my meedical history.

Just my damned luck to be serviced in the ER by an ABA momm.

@Peacebringer735 @VulcanTourist Hello nice to meet you!

The nurse seemed to think she knew what to do, but she was upsetting me with every command/demand/interruption. She seemed to be full of ideas that were wrong for my mental health.

@GreenRoc @Peacebringer735

As I drifted off to sleep, I was thinking about your need being comparable to a blind person, a speaker of another language, or an accused criminal: you need a "lawyer" or a "translator" or a "seeing eye dog", an advocate for your needs and rights. It's for this reason (and transparency) that I ask my wife to be present at all my doctor appointments, and on first introductions to that slightly unordinary state I half-joking call her my "seeing eye dog".

I hope that you can glom onto someone who can do that for you. Maybe there's an NPO with the equivalent of social workers who could be called to arrange that if there's no friend or family.

@VulcanTourist @Peacebringer735

I have one, she was missing that evening. I had fell into stroke-like event because I had a meltdown with involuntary head bashing three days before, because I was so upset from my roommate missing, and the head bash was in frustration that was a chain fo frustrations with the missing persons call line only handling voice calls, and would not let me get a return call of a text or email, voice only. I was pissed off at San Diego Police having no accomidation.

@VulcanTourist @Peacebringer735

And my backup Advocate was out of town. I had called my backup advocate that I called to help me call 911 because I could not get my hands to press the buttons 911, but I was able to hit a big dot of my backup and a big dot for calling. It was after 9pm so others were sleeping... I only knew of one person on my phone I could call to be a voice for me, but the nurse was also stubborn with my certified therapist being the person on the phone to validate my words.

@GreenRoc @Peacebringer735

Gatekeeper indeed. Hope you get some revenge.

@VulcanTourist @Peacebringer735 Yep. Denied me hand movement to give her a thumbs up, or a shaken head to give her a no (trying to not use my voice which would be interrupted and would interrupt her... visuals do not interrupt speech)... Denied my verbal advocate on the phone, denied reading my hand written notes, she was a trauma reminder and became another trauma.

She put bad dx's on my medical records that I have to have an appointment with my psychiatrist to get removed from my history.

@VulcanTourist @Peacebringer735 And I dont want revenge. I am against revenge. I dont want to hurt people who hurt me, that just spreads more hurt.

What I want to sue for, is for her to not treat people like she treated me, to allow for hand written notes if requested. To recognize that some people who can speak, may need to depend on text or writing to communicate in a fashion that is better for the patient.

I want to sue for accomidations, suing for other people to not be ignored like I was.

@GreenRoc @Peacebringer735

That's the sort of revenge that I meant, but the word "justice" didn't seem to fit.

@VulcanTourist @Peacebringer735 fixing a problem. Failure to provide communication accomidations for a person with communication difficulties and selective mutism.

Selective mutism is on my medical history which she chose to ignore.

But with Trump #USpol making "DEI" something bad, and wanting every establishemnt in America to have no DEI, I would then have nothing to sue for if accomidations are not being provided by law.

Accomidations were lacking in the police and at the hospital.