If you have #ADHD, you are probably bitterly familiar with the Wall of Awful — the feeling when you *want* to do a thing, but you just *cannot* get yourself to actually *do* it. The thing you want is behind a wall of negative emotions, and anytime you even get close to it you get overwhelmed or panic.
My interest in electronics has been behind my Wall of Awful for years now. I've been staring at these damn things for weeks and struggling to get myself to do *absolutely anything* with them.
Also, do you have #ADHD and feel bad about having a bunch of unfinished projects, abandoned hobbies, unread books, etc.?
Yeah, you should stop that.
You have a neurological bias toward novelty and poor executive function. You're probably using up all your self-control to do the things you need to get done like work, chores, and errands.
As long as you aren't digging yourself into a financial hole, cut yourself some slack with the stuff you do for fun. It's gonna be messy, and that's okay.
It is such a relief to know I am not the only one, and it isn't just a character flaw!
I still remember and cherish the memory of how I felt years after spending big-for-me money on yarn and knitting patterns that sat in a bag, for years, when I finally picked up one of the projects, worked on it, and finished it. Then completed the second one! It felt amazing, and wonderful!
I still have so many unstarted as well as unfinished projects. Just ideas in head, materials saved, found, scrounged, thrifted or purchased, waiting for magic wave of umph to start or continue.
Those 2 finished projects feed the hope that some day I will pick up the unfinished, unstarted, and complete them too.
Huh, that is interesting. I am the opposite. I don't focus well when other people are around, at least other people I know. I need to be alone to get stuff done.
Part of me wishes I had known this decades ago. Better late than never, though, I guess.
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