Gaah, how do you deal with general feeling of "everything's shit"?
The work thing I used to love and felt like it was impactful (Unity) has been going downhill for many years, and so far does not look like it wants to stop going downhill.
What I dabble with now (Blender) feels useful, but I'm too afraid to take on more impactful areas/work/responsibilities.
And then, everything outside of "just ye olde coding" feels like it is going to shit.
Argh!
@elliotc worst case wrt blender, or worst case in general?
blender: good question. I start something, get responsible for it, and have no easy way out, I guess. Yes, stupid.
in general: war comes here.
@aras i meant blender. that makes sense! that happened to you before! but i would argue that what went wrong before was somewhat specific to the internal political situation, and depending on the blender politics, you and whatever project you choose may not be as vulnerable to that.
about the other thing, that makes sense and boy howdy the stress it must create.
@aras @elliotc I visited Latvia (i know, the other guys) last year. I stared at the very border every day, visited old partisan bunkers, idea that the whole thing returns felt uneasy…
recently I have no idea what might happen next day, world is in hands of old egoistic men
I am absolutely in no control of current events. That’s somehow… freeing? I try to spend time with my family and friends and try to worry only a little, cancelled twitter, stopped watching youtube…
Aras Pranckevičius
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