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Katrina Marie; She/Her 🐣 🏳️‍⚧️ 🦄

I am who I’ve always been. You’re just seeing the me inside coming out. The feelings I’ve always felt have been given words. And now that they have been spoken, there is no bottling them up again. I don’t know what the future holds. You say we will always be friends and you will always love me. And it sounds like you’re trying to say goodbye. I cried almost nonstop for a day. We yelled about how we were both hurting.

If I gave you an out. Now, without any blame or anger, would you take it‽ Those words I cannot voice. Because I’m afraid the answer is yes. I fear going through this change alone. I fear being judged by those who mean the most to me. I fear no one loving me the same again. I fear you stopped loving me a long time ago.

I am who I’ve always been. And I’m sorry I never told you sooner.

@NovaHellion who you are is wonderful ♥️

Will Nov 20, 2023

@NovaHellion I like you for who you are on the inside. IMHO you don’t owe anyone an apology.

Adam Nov 20, 2023

@NovaHellion hugs to you

Ry Nov 20, 2023

@NovaHellion 🫂 🫂 ❤️

Bear Nov 20, 2023

@NovaHellion ❤️

RopeSwitch Nov 20, 2023

@NovaHellion oh hugs. I am sorry this is so hard for you.

@NovaHellion Sending you virtual hugs! ❤️

“Change” can be scary, especially when you feel like you haven’t actually changed. Being true to yourself is a journey worth taking. Embrace the support around you, and remember, the ones who truly care will stick by you through it all.

Here is a quote I really like: "People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. When you figure out which one it is, you will know exactly what to do." (1/3)

@NovaHellion Embrace the support around you, and remember, the ones who truly care will stick by you through it all. Those who don’t maybe are at the end of their season. It lasts for some time and brings you joy and growth. You might learn a lot from the relationship, but it eventually ends. (2/3)

@NovaHellion This quote reminds me people enter our lives for specific purposes, and when their role is fulfilled or the season changes, they may drift away. Sometimes important people in our lives have fulfilled their role and they drift away so someone else can help you in the next phase of your life. (3/3)

Chester66Red Nov 20, 2023

@NovaHellion 🫂

Jay🌟🌟🌟🌟Nov 20, 2023

@NovaHellion Thanks for being so open about your current thoughts and feelings. I appreciate you as a person and that will never change. Sending a big 🫂

two slightly distorted guitars Nov 26, 2023

@NovaHellion Thank you for writing this. It expressed a lot of what I felt in my former relationship. I hadn't changed, I'd just started to find better words for who I've always been. Things are better for me now, I'm happier in who I am, and I hope that, whatever form it takes, your future is happier and more authentic too. <3

Katrina Marie; She/Her 🐣 🏳️‍⚧️ 🦄Nov 26, 2023

@rhamphorhynchus I’m so glad you are happier now. I know I’ll be okay. Just processing these feelings as they come. And it truly helps to hear from others who’ve gone through this too. Gives me lots of hope and strength 🩷🩷🩷

DaddyScruff Dec 8, 2023

@NovaHellion I read this and thought what if my best friend came out as trans and decided to start living their true selves.what would my feelings be? I would hope that of love and support. But I often here scenarios of people feeling like the are losing a part of someone that they are so used to. It would be a challenge for both but one thing that the support needs to understand is that anything and everything they THINK there’re going through is NOTHING

DaddyScruff Dec 8, 2023

compared to what the the actual trans person is experiencing. We get so caught up in in our feelings that we can forget that our loved ones need us the most in those times. I’m sure I’d probably think “Why didn’t let me know sooner I could have been there or At least trying to have been as supportive as possible.”

DaddyScruff Dec 8, 2023

Even from that perspective is a double standard. I was 33 when I came out to my family. It took 33 years of discovering who the hell I was and then finding the courage to accept whatever circumstances due to my decision to come out. Some people never come out. We all walk our own journeys in our own time. I would hope that I would be smart enough to put my feelings aside and just be there.