I am who I’ve always been. You’re just seeing the me inside coming out. The feelings I’ve always felt have been given words. And now that they have been spoken, there is no bottling them up again. I don’t know what the future holds. You say we will always be friends and you will always love me. And it sounds like you’re trying to say goodbye. I cried almost nonstop for a day. We yelled about how we were both hurting.

If I gave you an out. Now, without any blame or anger, would you take it‽ Those words I cannot voice. Because I’m afraid the answer is yes. I fear going through this change alone. I fear being judged by those who mean the most to me. I fear no one loving me the same again. I fear you stopped loving me a long time ago.

I am who I’ve always been. And I’m sorry I never told you sooner.