Signals

I am thinking about the space between rationality and intuition a lot lately. Or maybe rather between that which we have words for in order to explain and a logic to which to (sometimes) agree; and that which bubbles up from somewhere but that lacks the words other than "hunch," "feeling," "idea," maybe "I want," "I don't like," "I wish," "I desire."
When we come to a new place or things change a lot, it might be easier to trust our intuition, our "gut feeling." It becomes more difficult when things have settled and there should be words. But aren't we fooling ourselves about how much we know and especially how much we can explain?
I am usually very good with words, and yet I have learned to appreciate and be honest towards myself and others about how little I actually know when making decisions. Why meet this person and not that person? Why work on this project and not that? Why try this approach? How even to come up with an approach to try?
It is truly fascinating where these signals come from. I remember sitting on that ledge and feeling very attuned and open to the light nuances in my emotions and the place around me. How I reacted to buildings, moods, ideas about where to go, what to do, who to become. I like to remind myself of that time, to look beyond the routines of my life now and think of of how arbitrary many of them actually are.
Are you tuned in to your intuition these days? Where do the signals come from to which you listen?

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This, so many times I wonder about why we choose the way we do, and we like to believe we are rational beings, but I am not so sure about that. :) I really likek how you make me think with your texts and your images.
One time some years ago I was sitting in a Starbucks in Tokyo Japan. I had just retired from 22 years working in the Silicon Valley and felt lost sometimes about what it was I should do. I realized then there was no longer choices to be made about what to do, not to do, no reason to think anything through any longer or decide on outcomes or inputs. I had left all that behind in IT world. So I left the Starbucks that day. I walked Tokyo all day long. Saw school kids and little parks. Took some photos with my fuji x100f. Was completely lost yet found because no choices had to be made or things thought through any longer. After a day of turning left and right, I saw this big street coming up. I walked to it and there was the Starbucks I had started at. From then on, there was no should or should not do, responsibilities, tasks, ownership, lists, notes. All that seemed so yesterday. that was years ago and I still live that way. Now my Cambodian wife tells me to live for the day. Forget tomorrow. Just be happy to have what we have. I also decided that time is not really real and that moments, memories and experiences kick times' ass seriously.