Vineyard Of My Heart

I drive across the desert of my heart
to find two-headed monster of despair
dancing among stars on the mountain peak
while drinking blood of humans killed in war,
then steal every photograph ever snapped
and mold

https://surazeus.blogspot.com/2025/12/vineyard-of-my-heart.html

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Secret Streets Of Anywhere

We walk the secret streets of anywhere
to find fear-twisted childhood memories
where we are running to the somewhere else
with nothing we should value in our hands,
because we want to tend flowers of faith
that

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Life No God Designed

If we expand from cities of our grief
and float above confusing maze of sorrows,
we may conceive compassionate relief,
entangled taut in vain hopes of tomorrows
where we must face the selves we leave behind
in this

https://surazeus.blogspot.com/2025/12/life-no-god-designed.html

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Twisted Road To Neverland

Not too subtle about laughter of love,
though silver flowers consume agony,
we challenge our hearts to overcome fear
with deep celestial breath of calm concern,
however far we travel beyond fate
to purchase

https://surazeus.blogspot.com/2025/12/twisted-road-to-neverland.html

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Face I Lost Somewhere

Mindlessly wandering nowhere alone,
I seek to avoid the dramatic play
where my life is endangered by contempt
when people attack my right to exist
to keep myself safe from psychotic hate
strangers project at my

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Finally, you get my FULL mathematical conceptualization of a 1:1 conversion between Eorzean calendar dates and Gregorian calendar dates.

Enjoy! (Or if you hate math, suffer!) But with love. 💙

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EDIT: TFW you find you redefined a word instead of explaining it.

Oops, and fixed! The key moment:

• True mathematical randomness: quarter lands on heads 100 times in a row with low probability but zero shame

• Lived experience of randomness: actually stochasticity, not randomness

Unlaughter Of The Tree

This cannot be unlaughter of the tree
though it resembles how it might have laughed,
so I will not begin here at the end
since here has already shifted to there
because I will invent voices of leaves
that whisper

https://surazeus.blogspot.com/2025/12/unlaughter-of-tree.html

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Fractured Innocence Of Skulls

My room is quiet in the afternoon
since language sprinkles from eye of the moon
in silent likeness of unmeasured faith
that marks assertive sequence of concern
adjacent to soft emptiness of time
that might

https://surazeus.blogspot.com/2025/12/fractured-innocence-of-skulls.html

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Vortex Of The Here

Place carefully your heart on broken stone
to displace sorrow from mirror-forged bone
as if you want to understand our pain
by dancing madly in eccentric rain
despite how legless churches walk away
from disciplined

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