Jeremy MallinDoes any other late Dx #ActuallyAutistic ever feel like you mourn the life you could have had if only you had known much sooner?
I wonder how different it could have been.
Hell's Kitchen Bitches! 🦮🔥@JeremyMallin I do think about it sometimes. All of the time I wasted doing things that I thought I was supposed to do… Because they were the rules as I understood them. I wish earlier I had known about alexithymia because it has caused me a lot of problems not being able to communicate on my feelings or do what I perceive as emoting on demand. I am a lot better off now and mostly I try to just be grateful for the knowledge that I am gaining but definitely I do look back sometimes
Almino 
@JeremyMallin
I do it all the time.
Things I could've done, people I could've helped…
Life would've been so much easier not trying to force myself to live through these situations… not being afraid of existing, not being tired all the time…
I'm not angry, although. I was angry all the time before I understood I was #ActuallyAutistic. Now, I know what to do to not get angry.
Meow.tar.gz 
@JeremyMallin Yes, I often do and can readily identify with you in that respect. However, when I was a child knowing sooner would not have helped because service just weren't available and #autism was not even a recognized diagnosis.
ombresque@JeremyMallin
Yes :/ all that time spent with people who merely tolerated me when I could have been building authentic community with others
Yes :/ all that time spent with people who merely tolerated me when I could have been building authentic community with others
Amy Worrall@JeremyMallin I guess that’s similar to being trans…
Hat. AuDHD cat 😷🌺🍉🌻🔻Nasty, dehumanizing assumptions about your lack of sentience
Depends on what "therapy" you parents decided to have you subjected to.
jessica 
@JeremyMallin Pretty much every day 
Lainey@JeremyMallin If Only … is one possible chapter in my life story
Doggle@JeremyMallin I wonder about it but I can't mourn something that I don't know.
In fact, I generally conclude that I would likely not have done as well, be in such a good position now, or have done as much with my life if I'd realised that everything was harder for me than most.
My life would definitely have been very different but I can't say better, maybe, maybe not.
Even before self dx I never did regret and always felt glad to be me even w. all the shit. Can't explain why, but always have.
Miakoda 