🍄 August 🦝

My whole life I've felt like my throat has been closed up and I can't speak. Until I was 6, this was literal because I was nonverbal. Then when I could physically speak, I was abused and made not to. Then as an adult I felt like my words didnt matter because Of all the gaslighting that was done to me, I felt like there was no point... and I feel like alongside that the only words I've spoken was me begging to be loved only to be abandoned.

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Mar 26, 2023 at 5:34amWeb
Show thread🍄 August 🦝Mar 26, 2023
Then it was me begging for help because i didn't want to die but I felt I had no choice and When those cries for help went unanswered I felt like I couldn't speak at all. So I tried to speak with my actions in an attempt to hurt myself and even then I failed. So all i could do was sob and sob and sob to my Mami, Santisima Muerte. And she was the only one to ever answer. She was the only one to hold my heart. She was the only one to bring me what I need.
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She is the only one who reignited the light in my soul that everyone extinguished or left cold. Mami has been teaching me how to speak and sing. And shes teaching me that even if No one in the world cares about me or hears me or does hear me and ignores my cries, she will always answer. So even though my throat still swells with cries and tears, My Mami hears me. And my Mami promises me that she'll never let anyone stick around that doesnt have My best interest in mind.
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So every loss is her promise, every gain is her blessing, and no matter what, it's always her love.
I love my Santisima Muerte more than I could ever even try to express.

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