Bex OllertonTurning off your feelings feels like a neat little PTSD life hack until you realise that you can't turn them back on again so easily
Cyber Yuki@Schnumn awww 😢
Mal 甄/kalessin/Peri@Schnumn Also, it's a real mess when, 50 years later, you start getting intrusive thoughts and other signs that you have a huge backlog of feelings to contend with now, 5 decades later. Ask me how I know. Go ahead. :) <3
secant2@Schnumn and then when you finally do wrench it open you have an unstoppable flood of emotions that are ruining your life because they have to come out now, there's no stopping them, but you weren't quite ready for it, and you're left waiting for the torrent to end so that you can put your life back together and move forward.
Evan Jensen@Schnumn goddamn, for REAL. It was a bad idea for me.
Schrottkatze 
@Schnumn well the positive stuff is now clogged for me and the negative things work again (a bit at least)
Freakinbox@Schnumn Is this why I couldn't cry for several years even when I felt like I needed to and wanted to? It drove me crazy... I needed to get it out but couldn't
I've dealt with a lot of my tramua now and holding crying back is damn near impossible again.
JadedUmbra@freakinbox @Schnumn Ooh! Yep. This was me from 16 to 36 when I started HRT. Then the tears. It feels so much healthier!
J. Rosenbaum (they/them)@Schnumn ooooof. This is exactly what I am in therapy for right now.
Ellia Ivy McLeod@Schnumn What feelings?
Jari Komppa 🇫🇮@Schnumn
Not caring about anything was an useful thing while in the army (just training, no active duty). Then my dad had a heart attack.
Not caring about anything was an useful thing while in the army (just training, no active duty). Then my dad had a heart attack.
Devo 
🪴🌮🥃🍣@Schnumn I definitely feel this
@Schnumn Then comes the memory loss and rewriting of your traumatic experiences. It's like being a blank slate person without access to personal empathy! yay...
\ˈthē-ˈˈärd-ˌvärk\@Schnumn
I still do this. Not sure it's something I can elect no to do
I still do this. Not sure it's something I can elect no to do
Lizzie Danger@Schnumn... well, mood, in short.