Turning off your feelings feels like a neat little PTSD life hack until you realise that you can't turn them back on again so easily
@Schnumn and then when you finally do wrench it open you have an unstoppable flood of emotions that are ruining your life because they have to come out now, there's no stopping them, but you weren't quite ready for it, and you're left waiting for the torrent to end so that you can put your life back together and move forward.