I had a very busy day yesterday and I am exhausted from packing today.

I went to a ball yesterday that was more like a dance party in disguise because the DJ seemed to be allergic to playing slow songs. I also made a masterpost on Facebook regarding the ongoing situation with Zelda in response to an anonymous question I received. If you’d also like to send me anonymous questions, click here.

-Allēna

We got a notice of termination of tenancy today.

This comes after asking our landlord for a written lease for over a year now.

We have to be out on or before January 31st officially now.

The language makes me wonder if it applies to the Zelda System as well, especially since the landlord sent a photo of it to a group chat with Emerson and Zelda.

-Allēna

My new headmate has a villain song.

I wanted to post it here now that things with Zelda have gone…south, as it were.

It is titled “Australis.” Eight wrote it a year ago. Enjoy, along with a bonus meme.

-Allēna

#australis #disstrack #folkpunk #meme #ourmusic #zelda #zeldaSystem

Well, I found out today that Zelda cheated on me. They’ve been summarily dumped.

If you need me, I’ll be in a TV hole or asleep, probably. I’d be more upset about it except that I’ve been over the bullshit for a long time. This has been the latest in the long string of utter nonsense. I don’t have the spoons to be all that pissed anymore.

-Allēna

#cheating #polyamory #relationships #zeldaSystem

Well, I found out today that Zelda cheated on me. They’ve been summarily dumped.

If you need me, I’ll be in a TV hole or asleep, probably. I’d be more upset about it except that I’ve been over the bullshit for a long time. This has been the latest in the long string of utter nonsense. I don’t have the spoons to be all that pissed anymore.

-Allēna

#cheating #polyamory #relationships #zeldaSystem

Well, I found out today that Zelda cheated on me. They’ve been summarily dumped.

If you need me, I’ll be in a TV hole or asleep, probably. I’d be more upset about it except that I’ve been over the bullshit for a long time. This has been the latest in the long string of utter nonsense. I don’t have the spoons to be all that pissed anymore.

-Allēna

#cheating #polyamory #relationships #zeldaSystem

On the concept of doing it scared.

I found this post on Zelda‘s timeline and I have some thoughts about it:

Mother fucker. I experience all of these on a daily basis or HAVE experienced all of these on a daily basis at some point in time. Especially the “fear of being seen”, as that is my agoraphobia in a nutshell. If I haven’t mentally steeled myself for a social situation hours to days in advance, it feels like being set on fire to be looked at. It’s THAT scary to me.

I have to R E P E A T E D L Y face my terror and trauma to socialize and be amongst the world and do the poetry performances that I love. I’ve become the master of charging in and showing up to shit glass cannon style balls to the wall, when in reality, I do EVERYTHING scared. I do EVERYTHING some measure of tired. I may look fearless, but I’m really, really not.

Which is heartbreaking because I legitimately love people and I love my city. I just don’t feel safe in the vast majority of situations for a very long time.

My spouses have learned that I can be coaxed out of the house with decaf coffee bribes or cinnamon treats and the like, so that’s an improvement…

-Allēna

#Processing #trauma #Zelda #ZeldaSystem

Tiniest behaviors.

Watching Suits with this pretty baby 💛 -Allēna

#polyamory #suits #Zelda #ZeldaSystem

I’m so freaking eepy today but I’m slowly catching up on stuff.

I was out of the house for a longgggg time yesterday, though, which was cool – and got some adulty stuff done I had been putting off. I also met a very cool friend of Emerson’s and had a GREAT time with both of them.

We are mostly staying in today, though. I am being an intentionally useless potato while E is ostensibly working on writing. -Allēna

#chronicfatigue #eepy #Emerson #NEISvoid #outings #resting #SliceOfLife #Zelda #ZeldaSystem

He took the drugs and the drugs are working.

Happy 36th birthday to this bung on the left.

-Allēna

#birthday #bung #dingus #Emerson #lunch #polyamory #Zelda #ZeldaSystem