I _know_ you’re not supposed to expect anything or be ungrateful but pushing hard all month, in isolation, to create a world in detail, adding another 12’000 words and a 10’000 word behind-the-scene blog, and all you get is two views and not even a like on your toot is soul destroying.
The harder you push for excellence, the louder the crickets seem to be at the end.
Imagine spending five months working full time on a project, tooting about it along the way, sharing your work, and nobody — not even a single other human being — is interested enough to say anything about it* or use the hashtag.
*= The actual content, rather than the fact I’m writing a book
I have to somehow face the next month of writing with that as the learned experience. I have Patreons, I have a responsibility to them and I will continue to write, but dear God, I am begging for some kind of acknowledgement, feedback, *anything*, right now. I chose to switch to a hobby somehow more isolating than programming
#worldglass #writing #depression #creativity