You're scared of healing because you don't know what you're going to find. It's a new adventure and the mind makes up reasons why not.
Just accept that for a while there will be a level of fear present in your healing journey. It's just how it is. I'm happy to tell you that the fear doesn't last forever. It will stop.
When does it end?
When your mind realizes that you're not doing anything scary.
This process isn't scary but your mind doesn't know that yet because you haven't done it.
So how do you deal with that?
Take some small thing in your present experience and heal/release it. Try it and see what happens.
The illusion is that there is something there that you don't know about. But that's not true. You know about everything because you lived it. There is nothing hidden there at all.
When you try it with small things and it works, it'll be easier to do with those more painful experiences in your past.
When you can master it in your daily life it makes it easier to go backwards and start to clear off your laundry pile of pain.
I suppose in some ways I started there too. I had a lot of perspective shifting I had to do first. Like you, I was tied up in all the stories I was telling myself about what was happening. I had made myself a victim of my own experience. I had to shift that before I could fully heal much of anything.
By unwinding that through understanding my reality at the time, I was able to gain control over my perspective. I stopped making myself a victim.
I was afraid of the process when I first started because I didn't know where I was going to end up. What I realized was that nothing really happened, I just felt better. My life was easier to manage. I was more comfortable. I had a little bit of confidence. My spine was starting to grow back. Things got better.
There wasn't a major transition moment though. It was lots of small things adding up over time that created noticeable change and none of it was scary.
I sat in a lot of fear, but it was all my own and in my head. Most of my fear came from my perception of myself as a victim of my life. Healing the fear meant seeing that I wasn't a victim and that things would be okay.
It takes time. This isn't easy. I'm not here to sugarcoat it for you. It will require effort and you will probably have to deal with some fear, but you can do it. You can shift your perspective. You can heal.
I've posted tons today about how to do that. Go have a read of my previous posts and ask questions if you have them.
Love to all.
Della
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