ok, i've made a decision. on this account I will post my most intimate accounts of what i'm going through right now. i've decided to up the level of revolutionary in my life by recording systematically my thinking and experience of living with generational and collective trauma going back the timelines of my bloodline in history, like your one is.
i reckon it's my most powerful weapon i individually have in the global #ClassWar, and in my personal war against myself. but i also have assets and resources to defend and protect, as have you, my global family. i regard you all my family, as humans, and on this #kollektiva channel i hope to find my inner circle, my siblings, brothers & sisters, my elders & rolemodels i never had.
i am seeing my purpose in life and i have to carry it out and publish it. cause otherwise this living hell will be pointless and i will not have contributed what i can and know to humanity. i believe that knowledge comes with great responsibility. you can't stay silent and anonymous when you know the truth, because that would be morally wrong. living the truth, being punk, being REAL, means being open and transparent so that you can trust me. cause otherwise i won't get out of the gutter, my lonely dungeon of demons hunting me in, and outside my head 24/7, like the billionaire class is hunting us all, parasites of every aspect of global life. punk is living DIY, do-it-yourself, and it means analysing your own behaviour critically with love. nobody is going to save you, but the good news is, everything you need to survive and live a worthwhile life is in you from birth. it's the opposite of capitalism and competition, so #SeekingDiscomfort vs consumerism, hierarchy vs anarchy. it's learning the hard way.
what life actually is about, is mutual love, care and responsibility. it's about how strong your bonding is with people, the depth of your relationships, your success measured in how you've taught yourself and successively others and driven first your self, and then others, to be the best version of yourself and create the greatest possible ripple for humanities' progression and development. and yeah, right now we're collectively staring into the abyss, so we really need to get a fucking move on to create the tsunami of truth and REALness that'll overthrow this pandemic of greed, megalomania and frankly, cannibalism.
so here's my current playlist i'm listening to while i write.
it's called 'sad' and i listen to it because i am mourning my relationship with my partner, and i'm mourning him, because he has chosen to stay in the abyss of hell. don't get me wrong, he's not dead and he's not acutely suicidal for as far as I know, but it's the path he's on. it's a dead-end road, a cul-de-sac of doom.
I bet that's where the word 'cull' comes from, and now I think of it, i have lived in them all my life. as a matter of fact i am living in one right now, not just in my head, in #REAL fucking life. from the age of 5 i have lived in cul-de-sacs, and they where hell straight from the start. and i have only recently realised, i'm talking the last 6 months or so, that i have to break out of my hellhole, my dark den, my hu-mancave, my cell, by myself, on my own account as i am completely isolated because no one can bare my presence for very long.
i know i have value. and i want to utilise it to change my self first, and simultaneously the global living reality for all living organisms. i want to know as much about life, learn as much and then teach it to you and whoever wants to know. so here it is:
https://music.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL5RYW5Uj42dXrYTnEUo2z5Omm9S0k9j-h