“The U.S. Department of Justice is investigating whether Washington state has violated the rights of female prisoners housed with transgender women.”

#DOJ #CivilRights #CRIPA #PrisonReform #PrisonSafety #TransPolicies #GenderIdentity #PrisonHousing #TransRights #TransInmates #LGBTQRights

https://www.kuow.org/stories/department-of-justice-launches-investigation-into-washington-prison-trans-policies

Pronouns and Predictive Mental Text

I’m walking home from town thinking about my non-binary colleague and their pronouns. It’s the kind of rambling thought that’s kinda philosophical I suppose.

Writing about my colleague and using their correct pronouns is easy. Maybe that’s because it uses a different part of the brain, or because it’s possible to think more before coming to the word I want to use – and if I don’t like the words, it’s really easy to change them.

I noticed that while my inner monologue rattled off as though narrating my thoughts to me, that it occasionally used the wrong pronouns and corrected itself. Which is what prompted this thread of consciousness.

While that inner voice is chuntering, it’s almost responding to mental images of people. I wondered “is there a short circuit between sight and speech that aids fluidity when talking?” Basically, I see certain cues and my vocabulary is buffered with key words ready for quick insertion into a sentence … useful things like names, themes, and pronouns.

If that were so, that would explain why there is an inertia about using a person’s correct pronouns: it actually isn’t easy because the head gets in the way!

Thought experiment: what if I abolished gendered pronouns from my personal vocabulary?

I don’t really believe in gender as a thing that exists as an objective concept. Feeling that it is more how one feels about oneself than anything else. I have read a lot on gender as a social construct, and seen a view videos (my favourites being by Abigail Thorne on YouTube).

Gendered pronouns require assumptions be made of the person being referred to, unless they have explicitly stated what they want a particular set used. I suppose that pronouns are socially inferred most of the time, but ethically negotiated some of the time.

I return to my mum’s statement of referring to her in the third person while she was present: “who’s she? The cat’s mother?”

And there’s a little mean streak in me that says “let’s see how the binary folks like it when they get referred to using the wrong pronouns!”

Let’s talk about my fictional character Aaron and why I hate the name Aaron

In the third story of my Mercedes Masterson Detective Stories series, Jonah of Olympic, there is a character named Aaron. He’s not a large role, but an important one. He helps move the plot along. And sometimes smaller roles are good for that, I find. It sort of makes them unsuspecting or as if they just can’t help but center themselves in a story that’s not about them. We’ve all met one of those folks.

But the character is fascinating to me for a number of reasons, one reason in particular is extra interesting to me personally, and it’s something I hadn’t talked about yet and I’m not sure if readers have picked up on it — though I’m not sure how some could have. But to this end, let’s talk about Aaron…

Aaron, the character

In Jonah of Olympic there is a church called Holy Ghost Fire Temple, and Aaron is a young man who is a member of this church. The church leadership hierarchy has an evangelist at the top, and then his right-hand men, the apostles, right below him. Aaron manages a motel in the small town and is zealous and eager for the preacher’s affections. He wants to be an apostle and be counted among the most faithful.

Several readers have confided in me that he is the type of character they’ve known before, especially those of us who used to be or maybe still are in a Christian church. There’s always those young men that are way too zealous and desperately trying to rise through the ranks and always looking for affirmation from church leaders who they adore with way too much adoration. This is who Aaron is.

I try to avoid saying who a character is in terms of good or bad, or what have you, when it’s a character I wrote, because readers may differ on that and it’s fine. What I will say, is I don’t necessarily view him or people like him as bad people, but they can be dangerous if things don’t quite go the way their faith leads them to believe it should. Their faith is super strong, but to a fault in that it blinds them to reason, and that can be dangerous.

In the story, Aaron is a chosen name by himself. We never learn his previous name. All the members who join the church have to pick a biblical name as they begin their new lives. Aaron is the brother of Moses in the bible. He is regarded as a good public speaker whom God suggests Moses use when he tells God he’s no good at public speaking while standing before the burning bush. My character choosing Aaron as his new name is a projection of his ambitions — he wants to rise through the ranks and stand at the side of their church leader, the preacher, and be his voice — just as Aaron was a voice for Moses.

Aaron was a fascinating character to write. And diving into him each time I got to write him was a fun exercise in psychology and spirituality.

But, there’s something else about Aaron that’s interesting to me and I may have subconsciously explored him in ways I’m not even sure of yet.

I hate the name Aaron

My middle name is Aaron. I seldom use the name or mention this fact, because it’s always bugged me ever since I was a kid. I appreciated the meaning of the choice, my parents naming me after Aaron of the bible. But there was just always something off-putting to me about that name. To this day, I’m not sure what it is for sure. But when I look at that name, I do not see my name. I see something else and it bugs me that it’s supposedly my name. So I’ve mostly learned to ignore the existence of Aaron between my first and last names.

I do recall vague memories of looking at the name when I was first learning to spell it and just being so annoyed by how it looked on paper in my sloppy kid’s handwriting. The two As back-to-back also annoyed me. I recall thinking about how the name verbally was a name that could be either masculine or feminine, but on paper with those two As, it was clearly masculine. And I do remember that bugging me. I can’t say why, though it may have been an early indication of me being genderqueer. The fact the name is gender neutral audibly, but when you spell it Aaron on paper it is indisputably masculine. Erin, of course, being the feminine spelling. And my spelling of the name was the masculine variant — Aaron.

It’s so fascinating to think about how annoyed I was seeing that name when I wrote it down the first few times. I was instantly appalled by it. And as a kid, the only thing that tended to appall me instantly was seeing injustice. Like, when some kids bullied another kid. That was the quickest way to piss me off as a kid.

But writing Aaron on paper for the first time, and knowing it was my name, that pissed me off so hard.

But what does this have to do with my fictional character Aaron? I don’t know. When I was writing the character, I wasn’t focused on the name being my middle name. You have to keep in mind, when I write that name it doesn’t even register as my name. I was focused on writing an interesting character who saw himself as the potential metaphorical brother of Moses. A gifted speaker and leader alongside his spiritual leader who he adored. I wasn’t thinking about myself at all while writing the character.

Now though? Now I’m wondering. Was I subconsciously getting some deep-rooted feelings off my chest about the name Aaron? It looks like I’m going to have to re-read my own story and decipher the hell out of that character, because I may have been writing about myself, too.

Conclusion

I don’t think I’ve ever talked this much about my feelings concerning the name Aaron with anyone. So this is like therapy in the open. It’s also worth noting that I only hate the name Aaron as it pertains to me. If your name is Aaron, that’s ok, I forgive you. I mean, it doesn’t bother me. It’s just this notion that the name is mine when it really doesn’t feel right at all.

If you’ve read Jonah of Olympic, what did you think of Aaron? Give me your literary critique of Aaron, the character, in the comments. If you’ve not read the book yet, you can find it on the publications page.

What about you? Do you have a middle name that irks you? Do you love your middle name? What do you think my kid brain was doing when it saw the name Aaron on paper? Sound off.

Federal appeals court weighs whether schools must out trans students during trips

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MAJOR UPDATE!!✨
I now identify as a transmasc agender pansexual being using he/they pronouns!! I remember when I came out as trans around 11 years ago, I first questioned being agender. But, after a long time of identifying as a man, I can safely say that I don't identify with that either. I am still okay with being referred to as "dude" and "bro"!! I see them as gender neutral terms. But, I don't conform to either gender. I've always felt odd being in groups full of just women or just men. I have lived both experiences, but I just don't identify with either!! Thanks for hearing me!!🤍

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