I wish me sharing memories and stories about you, would give you more form than just the temporary relief of a short intense flashback, that takes me right back to that moment...
I wish we could have sailed the world together, become airship pirates, fought for freedom everywhere... You had such a beautiful heart
Love you Tori. Love you my isopod...
The time you kissed our& respirator on the bus and accidently kissed a headmate instead of this one...
I miss you so much, Tori, my isopod, my synchronized unit... love of my life. From the first day I met you, I have never stopped loving you.
And I miss your headmates, especially my sister. Jade was so sweet and had the brightest voice I have ever heard. And Zoe was really fun to be around. I wish I had gotten to know 32 more. I miss y'all so much 
You were my home, and I am so thankful and grateful for having gotten to know you...
I wish you were still here so I could tell y'all that again and again and again. Whisper through the night with you again, while cuddling. Just telling you again how wonderful you are, how proud of you I am... until the meows of doubt, become happy meows... I cant remember if I ever told you that I understood all your different meows, but I know you understood mine, so you probably knew either way...
I cant stop crying...
I miss your caw caws... your beep boops... your beeeeeps... your jokes... your soft snores... your sleepy mumbles you made before cuddling closer to me at night, that always made me wake up for a short minute and than made me feel so happy and safe and loved and grateful...
I miss the insane plans we made, and the adventures we did. I want to run from feds again with you. Land on national news again...
Confront nazis, soldiers and random assholes again...
I want to scream at the North Sea again with you. Want to again feel so incredibly lucky to have found you...
I miss you so much...
This cant be real, it just cant be, I need this to not be real...
All my favorite songs remind me of you...
Playing music on your harmonica in places you once where...
Pouring out a Monster Energy on the rails in remembrance...
We found a picture of us together on your phone, that we forgot you took. I have never seen us be so happy and relaxed as in that picture. Your eyes dont look haunted, but just look brimming with life. And I look at you with undisguised love and admiration.
I think I will print it out. Or turn it into a necklace.
I wake up
Late at night
Dreams of you
Still linger with might
My body is all wound-up
A persistent cough from crying so much
My existence is askew
Without your gentle touch
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I sleep in the house you grew up in
Share stories with your parents
Think of the last time I saw you grin
While I am sorting what is left behind of your heritance
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I look through your library
Walk and smell your hometown air
And am reminded of all that connected us
It is truly eerie
How similar our lifes, interest and dreams were
It is, through my heart, a thrust
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We were real
For such a short time
I cry each day, each night
I miss you, my magpie
unit-1233-1: [Cassandra]
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