im conflicted because I want to take a lot of dph tonight maybe like 20 but I know my baby will be so so upset with me if I do, but I havent had a nice od in so long and my withdrawals are agony and I just wanna feel something right now. I want to have a horrible dream where I feel nothing and everything all at once again. I want to become a rock and sink to the bottom of the ocean. I want to look in the mirror and know im dead.


