why do I always get on this site when its deaddddd chat stay up later </33333

who am I going to spam 2dayyyy ?

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my IRL is maddddd at me cus I won't quit my sh or drugs or go 2 therapy but I dont understand why he wants me to go so fast in recovery because I only just now decided 2 not kms basically and like IM SORRY IM NOT FUCKING LIGHTNING MCQUEEN fucking he's being such an asshole and im trying my best and every time I try to tell him he just talks over me and I thought he'd understand bc he's been here before but he just ignores me

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my fingers fell asleep

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I want to weigh myself but im still on my period and bloated and stuff :(((( but my mom thinks im like withering away more than usual so im visually losing weight,,,,,, so maybe it will b ok and I will be at a weight I want to be

I wanna try to get under 90 lbs cus my lw is 94.4 and like I've been floating around 100-98 lb range for like the past like several months cus ive been too stressed from school to like restrict good

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I took inventory and theres some dxm in the laundry room where we keep our medicine (but its all liquid and tastes bad) and I still have a lot of dph but no time to get highhh and then I have other stuff but it doesnt do anything but give me a stomach ache when I OD on it sooooooo,,,,, more benadryl. sometime. next week hopefullyyyy

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my heart desires cream soda in a big bottle that looks like 9999% indistinguishable from a beer from a distance

I used to have a lot and It made me look like an alcoholic

lowkey all of the drinks I drink a lot though look like beers from a distance though in terms of packaging even if they dont taste similar at all. I wonder why that is

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fellow black jiraidon members where r u so I can follow u 🥺🥺🥺🙏🏽

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I used 2 cut almost daily but now I cut likeee maybe a few big cuts like once a week or like every 2 weeks or like one big sesh every 2 weeks or something

3 weeks is wayyy too long without cutting though and thats like the point I get antsy and have rlly big sh urges again

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(T ^ T) I want a brisk iced teaaaaaa I want a to drink my awful drink 4evre

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do u ever like think about benadryl and then like feel it in the back of your brain and like its so vivid you almost feel high from that even though you never took any benadryl and havent even opened the bottle but the thought of benadryl is so euphoric and amazing that it gives that effect?

am I cooked ?

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