Nothing is right

I’ve been feeling a lot of pressure lately, both in my personal life and at work. Nothing feels right anymore. It seems like everything is off balance.

It’s not just me. The situation in the country keeps getting worse. The economy is declining quickly, the political news is always negative, and there’s a constant tension in the air. Every day, there are more rumors about war starting again. It’s exhausting.

We’re losing hope bit by bit, and the future feels unclear and uncertain. There’s no guarantee of a safe future right now. I hardly get any sleep at night. The only thing that keeps me going is knowing I’m surrounded by the people I love.

Sometimes I feel jealous. I see my friends overseas talking about starting new jobs, attending seminars, or taking trips to cities they love. Their biggest worry is choosing between good options or pursuing their passions. I’m genuinely happy for them, but deep down, I can’t help but think this should have been our life here too.

I tell my friends here that everything will be fine, that the future is bright and we’ll get through these tough times. But even I have doubts. I’m not sure about anything, but I try to stay calm, be kind, and keep hoping and working for a better future.

I really do my best. I want to make things right. I want to contribute to projects that matter to me, be active in the communities I love, be productive, help others, and share what I can. But what can I do when I’m feeling desperate myself? It can be terrifying at times.

Just to be clear, I’m not looking for anyone’s pity. I’ve written and deleted this post many times, but I need to get things off my chest. I remembered why I kept this blog up and running: to write what I can’t say out loud. I apologize if this caught you off guard, and I’m sorry if you’ve been a victim of my poor social skills.

#asides

Palia looks like an interesting MMO, but am I a Girl Genius?

I’ve been enjoying light farming while downsizing/cooking down my excess #DigitalFarmSystem inventory in #SecondLife and ran across some reviews of other games and MMOs in the SL Newser blog.

Girl Genius and Palia appeal to me, especially the former game. One of my longtime commu

https://www.lelanicarver.com/2024/11/palia-looks-like-an-interesting-mmo-but-am-i-a-girl-genius/

#Asides #ChameleonicPossessions #SecondLife

I combed through some of my Half Hour Hegel video and found several digressions and asides people might find interesting. Here's a video bundling four of them together!

https://youtu.be/ZrSpQiUmeBc
#Video #Hegel #Digressions #Asides #Brain #Phrenology #Phenomenology #Spirit #Pleasure

Apparently there’s an app for that, wherein that is WordPress.

https://words.lmorchard.com/2023/10/hello-from-my-iphone

The install of this WordPress blog and the ActivityPub plugin went very smoothly. Now, the problem is that I don’t seem to have quite as much excuse for not writing anything here. The Yak is Shaven, the software is working. Now I just need to, like, you know, use the thing.

(Edit: okay, so I puttered around with caching for a few hours, apparently the yak still had a few tufts.)

https://words.lmorchard.com/2023/10/the-yak-is-shaven

Making a few small adjustments…

I have both a self-hosted blog that uses Wordpress, and a "backup" blog hosted at wordpress.com, and because Wordpress' "Jetpack" requires connecting for social media purposes, it's sometimes too easy to double post to social media sites. Just now I made some adjustments because a single post to my self-hosted site created 2 Mastodon posts. I turned of

https://www.lelanicarver.com/2023/09/making-a-few-small-adjustments/

#Asides #Wordpress #Mastodon

Learning #Blender with #BlenderGoon for #SecondLife – V2.4 Make a signpost in Edit mode

Here's a simple old fashioned signpost that might be useful for someone in #SecondLife, created in #Blender. The tutorial covers inset, extrude, scaling on specific X Y or Z orientation, and other fundamentals. At the end Goon uploads his model t

https://www.lelanicarver.com/2023/09/learning-blender-with-blendergoon-for-secondlife-v2-4-make-a-signpost-in-edit-mode/

#Asides #Blender #SecondLife

Learning #Blender with #BlenderGoon – Enabling and Installing Add-Ons

The video is titled V2.1 Blender 3.0 enabling and installing add-ons, but these steps apply to ANY current version of Blender, don't be put off by the low version number. Putting this post in my SideEye column.

https://youtu.be/3CPaMslB0PE?si=LFOU4ISY7bH7nTpV

Goon (Goonther Blackcinder) is a #S

https://www.lelanicarver.com/2023/09/learning-blender-with-blendergoon-enabling-and-installing-add-ons/

#Asides

How To Navigate Discord (and find #BlenderSchool )

Goon Blackcinder's discussion for how to navigate Discord and share screens, if you're working in Blender and need his help. Actually it's pretty helpful for any Discord server you're on.

https://youtu.be/I_FRsf4BXVg?si=0qUzTHhR58xic9Zf

https://www.lelanicarver.com/2023/09/how-to-navigate-discord-and-find-blenderschool/

#Asides

Every once in a while, I go through my videos and cull out some asides, digressions, & rants. Here's some from my Half Hour Hegel commentary series, mostly about the physiognomy and phrenology section!

https://youtu.be/ZfJ0RF4E00I
#Hegel #Video #Asides #Philosophy #Body #Mind