It’s been weighing on me how I’ve finally had a glimpse of just how deep the damage goes from my parents. They made it impossible for me to love or even be ok with myself. They made it impossible for me to know who I am beyond one or two facets.

I thought I’d begun to mourn for myself and move past it, but it’s more clear to me than ever that without help overcoming this, I will never be happy, satisfied, or even know who I really am.

Meanwhile the lack of cons and the weather keeping me from the nature preserve is making me long for connection with my kin side more than ever, which also pulls me down and saps my energy, adding yet another obstacle to getting there.

It’s a feedback loop I need to break out of or I fear I may begin to truly suffocate and send me to depths unknown…

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