It’s performance evaluation time at work. It hardly seems worth it, considering the anxiety it causes and the little-to-no real upside — based on the reality of many years now.

So me and my #AuDHD brain wind up delaying until there isn’t any extra space or time to let the activity last any longer than is absolutely essential. Call it #PDA, but it minimizes my emotional carnage.

I tried using the AI helper, but I had to cut self-aggrandizing language. Eww.

#SelfEval #ActuallyAutistic

My theory is "treat life like a Linux system — baseline, monitor, optimize, automate." I'm "senior level" at systems engineering, so in that domain Dunning-Kruger doesn't kick in (much). The danger is high competence in that one domain manufactures unearned confidence in adjacent domains that only look like systems.

Software systems are deterministic, fast-feedback, fully observable, and reversible. My health, weight, money, and relationships are stochastic, slow-feedback, and partially irreversible. The engineer's instinct of "I can model this, instrument it, and optimize it,"is exactly the overconfidence D-K describes when pointed at a domain where I'm actually a novice. My "life framework" itself nudges me to treat every domain with the same confidence, and that's where it gets me in trouble.

Which would also fit Elon's assumptions he can optimize complex government organizations.

#SelfEval #Improvement