I held it together for a while there. LOL.
I can't do fucking laundry because the fucking laundry charges your card $25 to do $10 of laundry, and I only have $20.
So nevermind.
I couldn't even do laundry. This is effectively a wasted weekend because I have nothing with which to do anything, and that's awesome.
Fuck my life.
Please help, I beg, again. Please. I am now begging because I have been made desperate. I literally have nothing left now, and apparently in Pennsylvania, you're not allowed to take a breath for less than $100 a day.
https://www.gofundme.com/f/ellis-emergency-fund
And my credit card still hasn't arrived, proving that you can never depend on anyone but yourself if you need something important done. The Iowa boyfriend said he loved me; loved me so much he failed to get me my own fucking credit cardโthe one the USPS lost because I can't prove I'm fucking meโwhen I fucking needed it.
Oh and half of my psych meds run out this week. I haven't been able to do much because I've been scrounging for pennies every single day since I arrived in Pittsburgh. I haven't been able to do much because without your help I can't even get into Pittsburgh from where I need to be in order to have shelter because I was unable to put together the money for the first month's rent and deposit prior to being forced to leave Iowa.
I regret not toughing it out in the cat piss and the boxes and the shit and the abusive neglect because they I could stop begging people to give me what I know they don't really have any to spare of.
I regret that it took this long for me to wake up, and I almost wish I never had, so I never had to confront the horror of what I'd become nor my inability to escape it.
I'm starting to think any other state would've been a better plan than this. Florida would've just killed me and not made it take this long just to gaslight me into thinking I'm doing it to myself.
I regret picking this one today.
Anyway, GoFundMe money donated this weekend won't get here until Tuesday, so this weekend is already fucked.
Please, I am begging you to help me unfuck my work week when I need to be able to get around with my new license to get a job. Otherwise none of this will have been worth an iota of anyone's effort or money.
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