Impulsive-hyper ADHD overdrive ☢️
A lot has happened in the last 2½ months, give or take a few days. Several surgeries, big painful trauma, a great loss causing huge grief… Dealing with all this, and trying to recover of it all, has been taking a lot of me. When you’re already dealing with a chronic illness, you have less spoons to deal with. And then, at some point, you’ve used all available spoons. You’ve used all the spoons that you tried to borrow from days in your future (if that makes sense). You are sad, close to depression, and tying to find a way to prevent that from happening.
My ADHD knows that there is something that gives me “easy dopamine”, a quick rush, a feeling of accomplishment, a short moment of happiness, of satisfying some long-craving needs… Unfortunately, it usually means that my bank account is suffering, and in the end, I am in trouble. I need to recognize it, to realize it, to acknowledge it and then… Fight it. 💪🏻 And while I know I can do it, as I’ve done it before, I also know that during times like these, I am not always strong enough to overcome it fast enough. ⚡
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