..on that note, here's another very apt #musicToWakeUpTo by #PJharvey called #billy which has deep memories for me around both my kids dads.
only the dickhead is still alive, in prison & heavily alcohol dependend resulting in serious #psychosis after 3 decades of drinking..

https://tidal.com/browse/track/637993?

#press #media #psychology #MENtalHealth #GenerationalTrauma #EmotionalNeglect #recovery #CPTSD #BPD #NPD #DVsurvivor #AbsentFathers #SingleParentFamilies

..on that note, here's another very apt #musicToWakeUpTo by #PJharvey called #billy which has deep memories for me around both my kids dads.
only the dickhead is still alive, in prison & heavily alcohol dependend resulting in serious #psychosis after 3 decades of drinking. i was deluded once & actually believed that i 🖤 him, but i never felt he felt anything for me. craziest thing is that i knew he was an alcoholic but i initiated & pursued him anyway, or rather, because of it. because that's all i knew, i have been conditioned from birth to believe emotional absence = 🖤 so that's what i've been looking for in partners. that was my rolemodel, my example to learn from. now i have to re-program my self & seek discomfort in searching for real love. fucking terrifying, even just typing the L-word 😆

https://tidal.com/browse/track/637993?

#press #media #psychology #MENtalHealth #GenerationalTrauma #EmotionalNeglect #recovery #CPTSD #BPD #NPD #DVsurvivor #AbsentFathers #SingleParentFamilies