Pratyusha Varanasi 🌱🏳️‍🌈

@pratyushavv
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Not from Varanasi // Environmentalist // Gay // Feminist // Anxiety, Depression and BPD // Talk to me in excerpts of sufi songs and poetry that makes you feel alive // Let's learn from each other? ✨
Going from a degree in Advertising to a career in Social Work makes you want to urgently throw up when you hear the phrase "our brand image will suffer"

@Sharkhootery omg im so invested in the cocoons on your plants from bird app 😭😭😭💛💛💛

YES PLS STICK AROUND FOR THEM. AND CAUSE I'M SELFISH AND WANT UPDATES. I hope you're able to make those trips soon ✨

@pinata1138 I wish you strength. I can't imagine how hard it can be to cope with a loss like that. I'm glad you've stuck around. ✨
@TheOnlySonu and that's fair. I feel that way a lot of times too. But it's enough to just survive on the really bad days. On the really bad days, we only need to muster up that much energy. We can put the living off till the sun is back up. And it IS going to be back up. :)

I'm still here because I want to hug my girlfriend one more time.
Because in 2 weeks, I'll see my grandmother after a year.
Because I will see a Van Gogh exhibit in December that I have waited the year for.
Because I want to watch the next season of Atypical.
Because I want to eat vada pav from a v specific stall.
Because I want to pet my best friend's dog.
Because they might miraculously make another How To Train Your Dragon film?

What's keeping you alive?

Just get through today? That's all you have to do - survive today. The next 10 minutes. The next hour. Till dinner time. Just till it's bedtime. This cloud will pass. Even if temporarily, it will. And in that brief window of sunshine, you will be warm again. And that warmth will feel good. So let's stick around for it? I'll try with you. Deal?
If no one has told you yet, it's okay even if you acted on it; I understand that you were in a lot of pain. I know, because often, I am too. But it's important that you reach out now, even if it's after you've acted on it. Someone will want to take care of you, love you & keep you around. I want to keep you around.
If you're suicidal, I need you to know that it's okay you're struggling. It's okay that you feel like death is the only answer & if you feel incredibly lonely. But I also need you to know that if anything, you are not alone in your loneliness. I'm lonely. So are more people I know & some people you know.

TW: Self harm

Yesterday was horrible. I lied to everyone that I didn't go into work because of period cramps.

Truth is, I didn't go in because I was too depressed to function. I slept the day away. I felt inadequate and frustrated. I acted on my pain and cut myself. But I reached out for support.

One more institutional murder at IIT Madras. Fathima Lathif, an undergraduate student in humanities and social science department committed suicide facing religious and caste discrimination from IIT faculty Sudarshan Padmanabhan, as per her suicide note. IIT Madras is a Brahminical Agrahara which makes the lives of students from minority community perishable in all ways. It is sixth suicide on the campus within two years.