TW: Self harm

Yesterday was horrible. I lied to everyone that I didn't go into work because of period cramps.

Truth is, I didn't go in because I was too depressed to function. I slept the day away. I felt inadequate and frustrated. I acted on my pain and cut myself. But I reached out for support.

If you're suicidal, I need you to know that it's okay you're struggling. It's okay that you feel like death is the only answer & if you feel incredibly lonely. But I also need you to know that if anything, you are not alone in your loneliness. I'm lonely. So are more people I know & some people you know.
If no one has told you yet, it's okay even if you acted on it; I understand that you were in a lot of pain. I know, because often, I am too. But it's important that you reach out now, even if it's after you've acted on it. Someone will want to take care of you, love you & keep you around. I want to keep you around.
Just get through today? That's all you have to do - survive today. The next 10 minutes. The next hour. Till dinner time. Just till it's bedtime. This cloud will pass. Even if temporarily, it will. And in that brief window of sunshine, you will be warm again. And that warmth will feel good. So let's stick around for it? I'll try with you. Deal?
@pratyushavv after some time I feel that mere surviving is not living. I like to live not just survive.
@TheOnlySonu and that's fair. I feel that way a lot of times too. But it's enough to just survive on the really bad days. On the really bad days, we only need to muster up that much energy. We can put the living off till the sun is back up. And it IS going to be back up. :)