jmz🦀ᵛᶜᵐ

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You're ushered into an alley by the tatterdemalion stranger. They urgently proffer you a beautiful hermit crab in a glimmering ruby shell....
34 cis ≈♂ they/he ♿ white 🇬🇧
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#illustrator #mentalhealth struggler, #zine fan, #crab enthusiast, long-time #MECFS haver
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Mentioning again that this instance will go away soon! I may or may not make another fedi acct at some point, but for now I'm probably gone.

If you'd like to keep track of me, my daily thoughts posts are now a newsletter at https://jallandale.substack.com where you can subscribe for cheap/free. For other socials/contact see my profile – don't be afraid to get in touch! – & my webzone @ https://jallandale.co.uk

It was great to meet you, & I wish you all the best. Thanks for the memories💖🦀

Good afternoon friends! Wind hasn't slackened, still sandpapering my skin but now full of the bitterness of raindrops stinging like gravel. Silty, paralysing greyness is back, no sense of time til the sudden pall of early night silently enveloping me now.

Sleep schedule has slowly crumbled in the past few weeks–partly unmoored by the gathering dark, partly b/c I've found a little drawing energy bubbling up late in the day.

May we find new connections, & deepen & nourish those we have today!

Good afternoon friends! Grateful for a day of intense contrast after yesterday's murk. Wind still harsh & cold, scattered bursts of rain still causing twinges in my joints, but sharp fine rays of sunlight broke through & honed every edge to a brilliant, hyperreal clarity.

Lethargy of cold laying heavy on me now, struggling w/finding a balance of needful rest & pressing forward.

May we take time today to recognise & compassionately accept without judgement all the emotions flowing through us!

Good afternoon friends! Air stilled & clouds starting to gather & thicken. Enough sharp cool morning light still to kindle dazzling neon colours left in oak & beech leaves. More mushrooms sprouting up every day in all their lethal, uncanny fairy-story shapes.

Already feeling gathering potential of rain as a lethargy & ache deep in my bones–recognising afresh how much I've enjoyed walking in the morning sun these past few days.

May we find & nurture compassion for ourselves & each other today!

Good afternoon friends! Slept a little better–or longer at least, which I think I needed. It's nice to have the day long & full of possibility after an early start, but my energy flags by early afternoon & I was left feeling a little marooned yesterday.

Though a little later it was still pale, misty golden morning when I set out walking–air tasting of ice, frost dissolving into countless pinprick dewdrops. Slow rain of pirouetting leaves.

May we find resilience and a sense of solid calm today!

Good evening friends! Sleep still shallow & restless under a low looming roof of slate-grey clouds, & a general bleary weakness in my limbs. Hard to get moving, keeping everything slow & gentle.

The crackle of leaves & harsh mornful trumpeting of the first departing geese are hushed. A feeling of grimly expectant pressure in the stilled, clinging air & a soft pewter cast to the light. Sour, moldering decay spreads along streams & marshes.

May we find kind companionship & mutual support today!

Good afternoon friends! Overnight rain cleared out temporarily by this morning, pavements dark & gleaming & a sky like yesterday's, fantastical towers & ragged pennants.

For now this may be my last daily post a lot of folks see. I'm sorry to leave you if these msgs have been helpful, but I'm finding the fediverse's anti-Black racism too toxic. In the future I may try to set up a little blog ppl can see via RSS or something.

May we find wisdom & determination to act rightly today, & every day!

Good evening friends! No rain so far today, a more open sky full of scales & stripes & swarming, curling cloudy patterns flitting from north to south. Darts of afternoon sun between the trees cast tiger stripes of light across leafy paths, now mostly passable again. Night falling fast, deep & cold now, near midnight dark by 18:30.

Weariness lifting a little but thoughts foggy & limbs heavy still–can't expect to recover from my exertions in just 1 day.

May we find courage & determination today!

Good afternoon friends! Changeable flitting weather–gentle showers from half-blue skies, then a sudden hissing spate of storm that cleared into honeyed afternoon light as if it never was. Willow leaves spiral down under raindrop weight.

Leisurely rest day–a little soreness aside)–aiming to acknowledge & try to celebrate the time recovery takes as part of a natural cycle, & not nag or judge myself about drowsy slowness.

May we find self-acceptance & belief in our ability to learn & grow today!

Good evening friends! Slow going still but lethargy is combined w/mild pain & a moderately optimistic heart, hopefully a sign of acclimating a little more to the autumn atmosphere. Big workout day–another kg added, spent most of my stamina in one big burst.

Clouds thinner & paler w/glimpses of veiled blue, cold rain returning but tentative & scattered. Crimsons & greens seem enriched to an almost otherworldy intensity by even this slight brightening.

May we practice humility & kindness today!