okay fuck it i'm dropping the mask

i know so many of my transmasc friends who have gotten harassed and mistreated by people of specific queer circles in fedi that claim that masculinity is an inherently evil thing, people who have provided proof in the past of being mistreated, people who are asking to please just be acknowledged and understood by their fellow queer siblings

these same people will continue to call these things non-issues, or claim that they "have never seen such oppression towards trans men" even when provided with evidence, or straight up just using 4chan terminology to describe the assassination of anyone who has a masculine expression of queerness

i know i am nobody to say this, i know i shouldnt even be involved, but i've been through the exact same issues, people quite literally describing ways they would torture me on public, sending me death threats, subposting me cowardly, and calling all of my issues as "non-issues", quite literally celebrating the idea of me killing myself, even though all i wanted was just to hang out with people and stablish basic boundaries

I don't want people to tell me they want to "forcefem" me, i don't want people to tell me that i'm wrong for existing, i don't want people to tell me that i am "choosing to be the villain" for voicing my complaints, i don't want people to keep invalidating my emotions, and i don't want any of that happening to any of my friends, whatever their gender or sexual orientation or pronouns are.

i'm not elon musk, i'm not a fascist, i'm not your enemy, just please let me fucking be, let me exist, let me love you, because i want to love you all so fucking bad and often i just feel like an alien in this platform.

part two: https://wetdry.world/@nelson/115548279625146065