sending my school proof of my ex gfs drug use among other things because im feeling very petty

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My tumblr downfall is so depressing

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My ex gf called me not once but twice yesterday and made stupid excuses, like, “my dad was trying to call my mom and called you”, and, “I was on the phone w my friend and Siri called you”. OBVIOUS LIES!!!! Pmooooooo OMFG I’m married go away

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Do people not realize jirai is makeup and fashion, not a NSO song? 😭

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im genuinely really upset, i realized my favorite mutual on tumblr blocked me, and so i went on a side account and i found a post saying they thought i just thought of them as a number in my following count, all because i tagged their main account in a post talking about my backup. i did this because they are a part of a system, and i am mutuals with multiple people in that system, and wanted to stay in touch!! i feel like a shitty person :( i never meant to upset them at all

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might just draft an updated letter atp. i need to kick the chair

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i got up from dinner to get water and said i was full, my mom said 'i bet youre just filling up on water. youre doing that on purpose.' lmfao???? i ate an okay amount of pasta and feel full. i have never had a big appetite, i literally have arfid. shed be the first one to know this. whats her problem??

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i realize sometimes that going into treatment was the worst thing ive ever done to myself. im absolutely pro recovery, and everyone should recover, bu me? my soul happiness and content in life thrives off the pity and attention of others, how pathetic. how am i supposed to win this if i am better? Its almost even sadder.

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im gonna be a star! /lyrc

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i am terrified that i am a bad girlfriend, that hes quickly getting sick of me
it is my biggest fear

im not too good at anything. im not pretty, im not funny, im not entertaining. i dont know how to keep up conversations.
im terrified hes going to leave me. im such a bland and boring partner.

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