i can't find the angled brush i need to do my shadow right. i own TWO of them because this happened with the 1st one and it eventually reappeared. and now im going to need to get a 3rd one next time im out because i can't just wait around for either of the 1st when i need to do fucking eyeshadow. this shit is so frustrating

i literally own everything i'd need to reactivate my photography hobby if i wanted/needed to except half my shit is spread between here and buried in a storage unit full of "hopes and dreams for if i ever had a house" and if i got it all out i'd have nowhere to put it all, and if i found somewhere to put it all i can't justify directing time to doing that because i need to spend it on things that might get me out of here. and thus the cycle endures

out here trying to find out where my camera is & where my cute clothes and accessories are and i cant because i live in a single small room & it's impossible to "organize" because i tried that and you just end up with things piled on top of things because there is physically no space to put everything you have, and i don't have time anyway because there is no justification on this earth to spend my time doing anything that doesn't at least tenuously advance my doomed career situation (aka the reason im trapped living in a single small room), and i don't want to get rid of things because i like those things i just don't have space for them & it's not like i can afford to buy them again if i do, so i just kind of exist in this pile of the things i'd enjoy more if it wasn't like this and "try to clean it up at least a little bit" permanently occupies the periphery of more immediate things i always have to do first, and even if i tried it's not like any of it has anywhere to go

that's exactly how she says it when randos ask too

like i know what they are but idk how to Do One