@pancake hi! We met in person a few times or more accurately we were in the same location multiple times due to r2con/workshops. No matter if you remember me or not really. That’s fine that you are thinking about such feelings and why people reflect it somehow. However, what if you pause or stop thinking about them as often as you do that now? What if you focus on things that you can touch or feel, on people or things that matter more? And if not matters more, let’s try to write down what you are doing, maybe create your own journal every day or week to see how much you are doing. And I’m not trying to convince you to do more. You are doing a lot. I assume that you can cut at least half of effort or time that you are putting into r2 and nothing like that can impact the project from people who love r2land for years standpoint.

I’m happy to have a chat with you pancake if you like - like two strangers who need each other just for that opportunity.

As a person with my own experience with similar feelings like you described and if I interpreted everything in similar ways like you - don’t be alone with yourself. Let people show you how great you are.