emma

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chronically ill, overly earnest
interests include other people, #opera, traditional musics from around the world, bribing the neighbour's wee fearty barky dog into liking me and wishing i'd found a hobby besides trying to grow veg in a changeable and often shite climate.

rapidly repeating animations can be a seizure trigger for me. this isn't something i can participate in.

#TradMusic #gardening #fibromyalgia #MECFS #ReadingOpera
Show threademmaJun 20, 2023
@atomicpoet If that's the way it's going to be, I think I'll have to call it a day on social media altogether.
There are deeply personal reasons why I need as many firewalls between Meta and myself as possible. Dysfunctional family things, made worse because they believe whatever their FB feeds tell them. An ex with mental health problems. The crap they pulled running experiments on people's moods. I barely survived that. Literally.
Plus the moral issues. That Meta/FB is manipulating social and political spheres in ways which are harming everyone.
I've been trying out different platforms and servers, looking for a place where I can sort of fit in. I need to consolidate the few people I've found who will interact with me positively and don't mind me replying to them into one but have held off because I don't know which server will be safe from Meta's crap (calckey over mastodon because pages). If everything you wrote is true, then nowhere is safe and this is pointless.
You and the other devs need to do whatever you feel is best. I need to protect myself.
emmaJun 7, 2023
Project GutenbergJun 7, 2023

"There's enough sorrow in the world, isn't there, without trying to invent it."
A Room with a View (1908)

Edward Morgan Forster died #OTD in 1970.

Forster was a member of the Bloomsbury Group in the 1910s and 1920s. Many of his novels examine class difference and hypocrisy. He was nominated for the Nobel Prize in Literature in 20 separate years. via @wikipedia

Books by E.M. Forster at PG:
https://www.gutenberg.org/ebooks/author/975

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Show threademmaJun 1, 2023
@olivermantell That sounds lovely :)
Show threademmaJun 1, 2023
@olivermantell No, not really. And I forgot my place for a few moments so someone had to slam me back into it and then block me.
Anyway, how are things with you?
Show threademmaJun 1, 2023
@tillybridges Would it truly be that arduous to not write in such a sweeping, declarative way? It's not like you'd need to go into any detail, just leave a little space for the other more important and more common reasons cis folk use HRT. "Some uses of HRT are gender affirming" does that. Really simple, and your argument would be stronger because it would be more accurate.

Is that really an intolerable demand? Changing a few words. Trans people very understandably want to be represented accurately and to be talked with, not at. Cis people do to, and your essay is about cis people.

Or if you really mean to say that ALL uses of HRT are gender affirming care, then could you, or someone, kindly help me get my head around what that means when I'm forced off it in three years?
emmaMay 31, 2023
fucking hate social media. why did i EVER think i might be worth listening to? shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up
Show threademmaMay 31, 2023
@tillybridges My hair falling out like I was a cancer patient in a telly drama felt very different from gender affirmation. I didn't care if I looked more masculine or less feminine. I truly didn't. I've always been shite at conventional girl stuff like make-up and accepted that decades ago.
I went on HRT because I was struggling cognitively and emotionally, not to retain some femininity.
I'm terrified of how much I'll struggle again when I'm forced off it when I reach 60. When I asked how you square that I actually want to know because it hurts every time I read one of these sorts of essays.
But this is about you and I deserve to be fucking invisible because of my identities so sorry for butting in with my question and point of view.
Show threademmaMay 30, 2023
@tillybridges I lost my ovaries and uterus to endometriosis a decade ago. Pap smear results were worrying so the gyno surgeon removed my cervix too and I now have what's called a vaginal vault. Basically my sex-related internals are pretty similar to a post-op trans woman's.
I've been on HRT since. It's not for anything like gender dysphoria. The rapidity of change in going from having an internal source of estrogen when I woke up one morning to having none by lunch time was real hard on my body. Hair loss, emotions all over the place, memory and concentration problems so severe keeping myself fed was a major accomplishment.
GPs have been gaslighting me ever since on what's possible re trying a higher dosage or adding progesterone. So that part tracks with affirming my gender. The practice's pharmacist did my last HRT review on Monday and she was happy to give me an increased dose to see if it helps with memory and concentration decline. Here's hoping.
But I'll have to come off of it altogether once I hit 60. That's approaching quickly. How do you square that with gender affirming healthcare? The invisibility of aging cis women?
Trans women should have the healthcare they need, but please, don't erase the reality of cis women like me, the reasons some of us are on HRT and how it's only ever a temporary thing. Some of us are vulnerable and hurting too.
emmaMay 29, 2023
Project GutenbergMay 27, 2023
We just joined Mastodon, please follow us. Still more posts to come soon.
Show threademmaMay 25, 2023
@Jdreben Whatever other people choose to do, I'll be moving to an instance which does not federate. I want as many firewalls as possible between them and the crap they pull.
It's a nice vision to think we'll be able to rescue some from that corporate cesspool. But if they haven't escaped already, why would they when they have access to what's going on here anyway?
Better approach is to talk to people in real life and if they're keen on Barcelona, point out that there are non-surveillance alternatives.