Mastodawn

2/2, essays written tonight by myself about some thoughts I was having about nature connectedness, as well as the behaviors of those who have become disconnected from nature, whether by choice or having been forced.

bug // june 15h ago

I'm returning to a format for essay presentation that is nostalgic for me. It's just what my text editor and writing environment is today.

This is an essay on nature as well as subsumption, or disconnection, and some hope for connectedness to nature by human beings.

1/2. also, alt text limits pain lol

bug // june 20h ago

Piotr Walicki 📸 🦅1d ago

Eurasian Jay (Garrulus glandarius, 🇩🇪 Eichelhäher, 🇵🇱 sójka).

#birds #birdphotography #birdsofmastodon #birdwatching #nature #naturephotography #vogelflausch #ptaki

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bug // june 20h ago

@theeclecticdyslexic aight, I will make some motivational posi works in a simplistic style using this laptop or some paper because despite my combative nature in my writing in english, I actually gained a lot of social skills over my years, and know well how to be kind and to teach self-care and kindness. This will simply have to be a focus of mine when I have time between resting my spine, meeting bodily needs as quick as possible, sleeping, and packing heh. Thank you again. I know it's true.

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bug // june 20h ago

@theeclecticdyslexic Mostly I'm just tired of doing free work that gets stolen by fascist genocidal techbro [other expletives here]

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bug // june 20h ago

@theeclecticdyslexic I know what you say is true, however I begged for respect and opportunity for about twenty years amidst all my talents. I did not know myself then, and was granted many opportunities I did not know how to handle gracefully, nor did I know how to manage my health well then, and so I have been in a pit of death and suffering for many years now. It's abysmal, but I know. People want some fake ass shit and roses. Truth be told I have tried every approach, so

Someday who knows

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bug // june 20h ago

@theeclecticdyslexic If people can't handle my vitriol maybe they should consider the fact that I have been continuously abused within fascist capitalist genocide and repeatedly drugged, raped, and harmed by felons and other untoward sorts, including my family, but also I understand what you mean, however I am fucking livid, however I know exactly what you mean, however I am fucking dying lmao. I get it though and you're right, but fjdksfjalkd

bug // june 20h ago

These are a series of some concept works I produced while in school around 2009, I never got a job as an artist in games or film that was able to support me, much of my work was stolen actually, and I am dying a slow death to this fucking day within the degradation of discriminatory fascist capitalism

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bug // june 20h ago

@theeclecticdyslexic thank you and thank you for your guidance. I have simply been switching gears on my artmaking so long in a desperate attempts to change anything at all about my situation, but it's all felt in vain. I even reinvent math in several ways, solve primes etc, nothign change.

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bug // june 20h ago

@theeclecticdyslexic that'd be neat, unfortunately i havent had a job in over 5 years, many of my computers are broken now, and I lack the energy and safety to repair. I could reconnect the PC, but first I want to pack all my shit in case I actually can get a job and gtfo this hellish situation lol.

I seriously miss my tools, I miss my life, I miss working, I miss having dignity, I miss not being in a gaslight abuse situation, I miss having hope for future, I miss a lot of my dead friends :\

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IMPORTANT	I require work to survive. I have no support. I have no money. This world is very ableist. I am disabled. I have many talents. I need paying work to survive.
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