My face was carved by loss, depression and burnout. But since 2021 I've been putting a lot of work in getting back up. I got a new job, several diagnoses, cycled multiple marathons and got back into weight lifting, recently. Gonna get some kind of life or die trying.

Gettin a new bike after spending endless hours on the old one for 10 years feels awkward. It's a 2x11 system instead of 2x10, which means that my shifting muscle memory and cadence comfort zones are a thing of the past. Also, the stock stem is shorter, ugh. Good bye old bike (pics from better days) 👋

Today is my 3rd birthday because a car ran me over, 100% their fault according to police. No critical injuries. I was lying underneath their car and only the co-driver noticed. The bike is 100% lost, farewell. Tomorrow is my actual birthday. Will have to pay 2000€ of unexpected money and see if their insurance covers the cost. My boss gave me his e-roller so that I can commute. Public transport is currently on strike. Electricity will be almost 100% more expensive from now on. Happy birthday.

For the first time in my life, a bicycle gear cable has just snapped - right at the shift/brake lever, the thick end thing ripped off. "Shift, shift, plong, krt, krt, krt, ???"  Since the cassette is in the third highest setting, I got home reasonably well with the two gears available. No wonder I had to switch gears so sensitively lately - but I put it down to the fact that I hadn't calibrated shifting for a while.

Hatte heute mal Lust auf was deftiges und fischte mir dies aus der ALDI-Tiefkühltruhe. Nur, wie baue ich eine vegane Bratensauce? Glaub, erst mal mache ich "nur" gebratenes Gemüse dazu, aber eine Bratensauce wäre schon was.

Ihr glaubt ja nicht, was für einen Unterschied die neuen - nicht "runtergebremsten" - Laufräder machen. Das Rad will endlich wieder vorwärts jagen und nicht gegen mich kämpfen. Da muss einiges an Flex drin gewesen sein.

Left office on time today, really needed to relax - some game time. Oh, but my (needed) replacement bike wheels arrived. Means gotta buy something at the hardware store, that's 30 additional minutes. Switch rubbers and tubes, clean cassette, overhaul shifting - oh, it's 21:30 🥹 Fun fact: Shimano's switching between black and white versions and I never know what I get. For 6 years I had black ones, for another 6 years the white version. Now black again. And each time I hated the change 

Tbh, I'm quite happy with Medikinet now. I don't feel changed, but I am. Still look fucking miserable, but this has always been my resting face.

Mit dem Fahrrad hinter Verbrenner-Rollern herzufahren ist wohl das Ekelhafteste, was es im Straßenverkehr gibt. Warum dürfen diese Dreckschleudern überhaupt existieren? Feinstaub ohne Ende. Oft fahre ich an den Rand, spucke und warte ab, bis die Wolke vor mir ein wenig zerflogen ist. Es ist echt zum Kotzen.