When did I actually skip to a part where I plan to literally poison myself with the help of my memory problems 🥀🥀
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I came to the conclusion that my plan to use my bad memory against myself is not actually that stupid.
I want to die, but I would always find a last second argument why I should stay alive.
Why I just don't crush a big amount of the pills and for ex. add it to my favourite yoghurt? I always eat it with a big amount of jam. I would probably forgor that I added anything to it even the same day and EVEN IF I realise that it was poisoned it would be arl too late.
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Ayayayayay I should post moreeee hereeee
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Ok I would cut nvm fuck happiness I can't fake it I feel even worse now
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DARLING CALLED ME " SWEETHEART " ?????
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My stupid ass ate more than it should and now I am disgusting X2 with myself cuz it mixed with my current mental breakdown
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THEY WANT ME TO TALK TO " MY " MON FRIEND DAUGHTER BECAUSE SGE STARTED TO SH AND IWJDJWJRJEJSIDIDUE WHAT
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I found out about waterboarding when researching about torture methods and a thought "Letz do it" pop in my head and Im actually frightened n amazed at the same time. I feel like if I wanted to do it but like if it wasn't actually me who wants it at the same time. I don't know what to do, I don't know.
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If I am cooked
I am scared to open discord
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Why do I suddenly feel something warm flowing down my thigh.
If I am paranoid or did the wound bleeded through oh god god gid I amtoo scared to check hahh
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