Starrbar 🌻

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πŸ’š Developing a pixel game about a silly green person who goes on a journey in hopes of ridding themself of a "curse" they live with.

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πŸ’ OP tag is #StarrSpeaksDen and I post my art on Tumblr, Bluesky, Twitter, Instagram under SpitefulBrim. If I have bitching about puritans to do, I use #FandomDiscourse.

🌊 Other socials are Tumblr, Bluesky, and Status.cafe (same name). Kinda sporadically active on any given site.

My pixel game!https://kibis-world.carrd.co
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Blueskyhttps://bsky.app/profile/starrbar.bsky.social
Show threadStarrbar 🌻Jul 2, 2025
@localvoid I think this is a really helpful way to look at it! I never considered it, but it also makes me think of how I've struggled with feeling like I'm not "really" nonbinary because some days I'm not so bothered by certain feminine words or I make no efforts to appear different (cause I'm lazy ngl), so it's like... I don't want to be a girl and I do want to be ambiguous or nonconforming, but I don't know if I succeed at those goals in my own mind. πŸ€”
Show threadStarrbar 🌻Jun 9, 2025
@localvoid I know this post is a couple months old, but I just wanted to say I think that's fair. I'm definitely not in the mood for really dark stuff constantly. Sometimes I do want fluff or just healthy relationships in my rps, or sometimes I'm wounded irl and dark stuff would be painful when I'm in that state. Hell, often times I don't even consider shipping characters or lewding them at all until I've already gotten to know them, and then after I've basked in what the canon story has for me, I might seek out AUs and/or smut. And I think that's just normal, to have different moods or shifting needs. I'm also wary of sounding like I'm detached from reality when I'm gushing about certain fictional dynamics and stuff, so I often clarify things like "I know this is toxic irl, but I think it's cute for this ship" or "I know these standards irl would be awful, but I'd enjoy seeing the characters make up."
Show threadStarrbar 🌻Dec 6, 2024
@localvoid Ah, yeah that makes sense. There have been plenty of times I thought I might have xyz disorder before learning that 1, tests came back negative, and 2, autism covers those symptoms I was worried about, but no one fuckin told me lmao.
Show threadStarrbar 🌻Dec 6, 2024

@localvoid (sorry I didn't reply sooner! I just got distracted by a buncha stuff in life haha)

That helps me understand, yeah! I can even relate to taking on other people's traits or trying to craft a persona of sorts (not saying I know exactly how it feels for people with bpd, but maybe a lesser/different version of those feelings).

It's interesting that you bring up that some of your past perceptions of yourself may have been inaccurate. I feel like that's natural at least to a degree (like when someone's views change over time and later they're like "oh I was convincing myself I felt that way"), but I can imagine that bpd makes that a lot more extreme.

I've heard of the symptom where everyone is either really good or really bad to you. I think I have that issue too come to think of it x.x It feels like I either REALLY like someone, I don't care about them despite enjoying their company, or I dislike them and want them far away from me. And that can flip if someone I liked hurts me and they're not like, actually special to me. Someone super close, I'd try harder to work things out. But if it's just a coworker or moot, I can switch to "god you're such a jackass, go away". heheh!

Starrbar 🌻Dec 4, 2024
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Show threadStarrbar 🌻Dec 3, 2024
@localvoid Hm... I'm uncertain why this means you can't have your own identity. I dunno, I think I've always seen you as you because you're the first person in your system that I met, and we talked for a bit I think before I even met Vyvian. ovo
Show threadStarrbar 🌻Nov 28, 2024
@localvoid This is really relatable >< I'm always so frustrated when I strongly feel someone is wrong, but I don't know how to articulate why in the best way.
Show threadStarrbar 🌻Nov 3, 2024
@localvoid Yeah, for real. x'D I understand if it's like Kris Deltarune for example, who is just canonically nonbinary they/them and NOT a player insert, so I do get irritated af when people refuse to refer to them correctly, because it has gross implications for how they view nonbinary identities in general. But even then, the most I'll do is disagree and go bitch about it haha. Takes too much energy to actively attack someone about it.
Show threadStarrbar 🌻Nov 3, 2024
@localvoid Ah, like they might be helpful or they might have a reaction that only makes your mood worse?
Show threadStarrbar 🌻Oct 30, 2024

@localvoid Yeah, absolutely. Hell, sometimes just me being a little uncertain or not having a STRONG opinion, but having some potential opinions on something sensitive, gets people antsy haha. Like idk man, do you think I can affect this issue? I'm just pondering over here.

This also reminds me of a silly dni I once saw that included "if you use he/him pronouns for (character who canonically is a boy and only dressed as a girl to try and compensate for feeling weak 'for a boy', but also sadly couldn't confirm for sure if they would prefer to live as a boy or a girl) or (character who is physically male and wears a frilly dress and we have no idea why or what they prefer actually because the writer doesn't know how to properly convey literally anything about gender lmao)." Like, when characters are written so ambiguously like that, it seems ridiculous for someone to be like "FUCK YOU if you interpret them different!!"