How can I describe my inability for my brain to be on autopilot? "Hyper-mindfulness?" More importantly...how can I get support for it?
https://lemmy.world/post/43029993
How can I describe my inability for my brain to be on autopilot? "Hyper-mindfulness?" More importantly...how can I get support for it? - Lemmy.World
In the US, first of all. I’ve been diagnosed with ADHD, depression, and anxiety.
I’m trying to get tested for autism, but I think I might have 1 or 2 autistic
traits, and any unofficial test has me on the low end of the spectrum. One thing
I’ve noticed lately is that I can’t put my brain on autopilot. And this has
caused severe work impairment. Like let’s say I get a job sorting packages or
papers. Most people, when they do this kind of job, they need to focus on what
they’re doing initially, but after a while, it becomes automatic, and they can
do it without thinking about it (to a degree of course). But for me if I let my
mind wander I will literally stop doing the job. So I need to continually focus
with 100% effort on what I’m doing. As you can imagine, this becomes an immense
mental load, so I often fall way behind other employees at most blue-collar
jobs, many times ending up getting fired for underperforming. That’s not to say
I don’t zone out, because I definitely do. I have an over-active imagination for
an adult. It’s just that whatever task I’m doing (driving, brushing my teeth,
cleaning the house, etc), I have to make an intentional effort to pay attention
to what I’m doing. Thankfully I am in tech, which (by default) engages the
brain, but the opportunities for work are slim, so I have to be adaptable to
other jobs as well. But obviously with this quirk of my brain, that severely
limits my options. It’s hard to really communicate what is going on and how
annoying this is. I’m hoping someone else deals with the same thing, or knows
how to talk about this. Thanks for reading.
When I could afford a gym, I did elliptical for 20 minutes (could never do treadmill–way too stressful). Then for 10 - 20 minutes I’d do strength training, usually HIIT-style.
Then I’d relax in the hot tub and/or sauna and/or steam room to reward myself.
Sorry for the late reply; no, I don’t believe it would.
This just kinda makes me sad that I don’t have anyone who likes to go on adventures like this, so I just usually end up going hiking alone. ☹️
I could come up with a list, but I’d just say pack with what seems right, be okay being wrong, and start of with short hikes, and go longer (leaving an itinerary and estimated return time with a trusted friend). You’ll soon find what you do/don’t need and come to an equilibrium. Do research based on what you found works/doesn’t work. For example, you might find hiking blogs say bringing a camping stove is a must, but you and your wife can do just fine eating nothing but trail mix for a 5 day excursion…that kind of thing.
Have you ever had auditory pareidolia on the trail?
https://lemmy.world/post/31948346
Have you ever had auditory pareidolia on the trail? - Lemmy.World
I was hiking in a wilderness area…a very remote trail without a lot of action,
and at one point I heard voices…I swore I heard human voices. It was up in the
mountains, too, so there wasn’t much to make noise like that. Obviously, I know
it’s my brain hearing trees groaning in the wind and quickly shortcutting to,
“must be a human voice!” But it was just eerie.
If you have android, Osmand~ lists hiking trails, even some of the lesser known ones AllTrails doesn’t have.
You can download topo maps offline, too. If you’re into hiking I highly recommend Osmand~
Work.
I’m working about 2-3 jobs these days, and none of them play to my strengths. You’d think I’d be able to make ends meet by working 60+ hours and living with roommates.
I’m also working on a side-project startup so I won’t have to work everyday and I can actually–you know–have a life.
Agree, it’s like it’s just intense enough to pretend that it’s doing something without actually doing anything. And then you sense when it’s coming to your calves and you just pray that it gets off your calves quickly!
As a Christian, I can completely relate to your sentiment. I’ve found Christians to be the most closed-off, narrow-minded group of people, distrusting and even downright antagonistic of anything that sounds “non-Chiristian.”
As a Christian, I’m sorry you’ve been hurt. It’s not right.
