Je vais quitter mon mec, la relation est complètement dysfonctionnelle
J'ai peur de lui faire du mal mais en même temps faut penser à moi + pleins de signes annonciateurs + il s'est vraiment très mal comporté avec moi (globalement il me parle comme un chien)
J'attends juste d'être rentré à Paris et de trouver les mots pour que ça se fasse proprement et gentiment
Some bad news also came in these days. I'm not taken at the casting, I had some bad grades, and I have been stolen a event by someone who stole a work of me (Too boried to explain this today anyway). And also there has been a terrible homophobic sequence in a popular France's TV show which made me lost hope. And there has been a film about homophobia which remebered me about what I had to face at ground school.
What can I do ? I'm lost.
Therefore this world seems to harsh for me to live in. I'm afraid everyone hates me, I have a very low opinion of myself, i run away from relationships. Highschool is very difficult to bear, cause there is a lot of assholes there who hates me. My strongs relationships I had at the beggining of the year which helped me are all almost-dead.
Unfairness is everywhere, everywhere too big, everywhere too destructive, everywhere too legitimated.
Hey
I'm sorry I haven't made a lot of toots these days.
This one wont be funny.
The last few days, my sleep needs (who were already disorganized) became higher and higher. I'm afraid of the world, stressed 24h/24, I have suicidal thoughts all the time. I'm eating sugar (a lot), drinking coffee (a lot), taking anti-stress pills, and paracetamol (cause I have headaches). I'm also sick and its awful. My sensitivity is also higher as usual (and its already too much)
I've ended watching
#Sense8 today. That was great, and also the first full-series I've watched in english-subtitled-english. That was cool.
A social network on which only asian bots like your depressed toots.
Oh, just because you may wonder :
I'm a loser. Therefore, i hope you wont mind to learn i failed my casting.
lmao i want to die soooo badly
I think ppl should be talking more about their feels, how they see life, etc. They could either be talking more of philosophocal, intellectual subject, but the problem here is that it is only possible for educated ppl from privilegied social classes.
I'm saying it because i'm bored of seing me talking about uninteresting stuff because i'm too afraid of being missunderstood. I'm also bored of those people talking about their routine as if it was not precarious. I cant have a routine. I hate it
