Dranoël

I think ppl should be talking more about their feels, how they see life, etc. They could either be talking more of philosophocal, intellectual subject, but the problem here is that it is only possible for educated ppl from privilegied social classes.

I'm saying it because i'm bored of seing me talking about uninteresting stuff because i'm too afraid of being missunderstood. I'm also bored of those people talking about their routine as if it was not precarious. I cant have a routine. I hate it

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Show threadCoronel Aureliano BuendiaMay 12, 2017
@Leonard An observation, We probably live in an age where the potential for education is very separate from priviledge; we currently have almost free access to the bulk of modern knowledge. Of course having access to knowledge and being knowledgeable are separated by a wall of effort. I can personally relate with some stuff you were saying before, but somehow i got to an opposite place, my routine is pretty important to my mental stability. Heads are funnky like that
Show threadDranoëlMay 12, 2017
@TheRealAurelianoBuendia The fact that naturally designed humans who d'un with "effort" doesnt exist. Theq fact access to school is free doesn't mean everybody have the same privileges. They have not been conditionned in the same way, w/ the same family, have not learned the same necessity to work, etc. It is not because rich ppl are more intelligent that they are better at school, its because school is made for ppl w/a stable and educated family.
Show threadDranoëlMay 12, 2017
@TheRealAurelianoBuendia About routine, i think you are right, I have the same theory and I actually explained it to my mother few hours ago. Not only having one helps keeping the mind clear and organized, but also it is a way to create a miscrocosm of society (w/ your family, work, friends etc) which avoid to think too much about the macroscopic scale of society (so it keeps uncontrollable anxiety out). You only focus on small things u have control on.
Show threadDranoëlMay 12, 2017
@TheRealAurelianoBuendia But actually my problem is I cant bear routine. It drives me mad, I want to change, I want new stuff, or I feel dead inside. Yet, I'm all the time anxious, I'm overthinking and analyzing everything. I do need poetry, love, enjoyable little things. Its why, for exemple, i'm so much disconnected with school and homework and stuff. I just cant.
Show threadCoronel Aureliano BuendiaMay 12, 2017
@Leonard Yeah, it's a difficult negotiation with yourself you've got there..I have serious trouble reaching out to people, sometimes for the most basic stuff.. I think breaking out of your own mold is important.. IDK, sometimes what i really feel is that my own head is conspiring against me all the time to fuck my shit up , you know the saying, you're your own worst enemy.
Show threadCoronel Aureliano BuendiaMay 12, 2017
@Leonard Like my personal process for "asking something" is
want something
Think a lot
try to figure out every possible reaction
oh my god it's too late to ask now they'll think I'm weird
ask at the most awkward possible time
regret asking for days even if the person was super nice about it
Show threadDranoëlMay 13, 2017
@TheRealAurelianoBuendia I believe your stuff is about anxiety problems. Like, you rationalize what you are afraid of, but it only make this stuff more freightening. I think working on your self-trust may help you a lot :)
Show threadCoronel Aureliano BuendiaMay 12, 2017
@Leonard
Yeah, you have a point..I think the idealist in me (that guy should show up more) wants to believe that the ones of us who really want it can overcome those factor.. I think this is true to some point, altough i see the question as a need to rebuild the way education works. In general we as a society do a shitty job at providing a level playing field for people to succeed..