COLIN FROM ACCOUNTING 🙂🤣🥲🥲🥺😢😭😍

So great
I watched it in 2 sittings~

Time for a #diazepam nap because my mum called me to borrow money AGAIN.

She’s always telling me how she’s so hurt that my NB sibling doesn’t talk to her. I don’t want to speak to her either. Fuck — fuck her bullshit. Oh — it’s definitely for alcohol/drugs.  I’m not a horrible daughter letting her mother starve.
It’s not a therapy week sadly, but I can journal and if my anxiety ramps up I can possibly get a cancellation appt.
My mental health has been   not great but Papa REC knows I’m not coping and he will take care of me or tell me to seek out some extra MH care if required.
Take extra care darlings.
December is a bad time for some.

Three nights in a row I have woken up with a blood nose. I’m on blood thinners, it’s a fairly common thing. I have learned how to attend to them quickly..

Last night I woke up like I wass in a horror movie. Blood covered half of my face, in my hair, over one eye and the blankets.. oh the blankets   

I have some really horrible xmas day trauma - the last few years have been awful.

Best case scenario: Tootie (grandma) is still alive and I can go have Christmas lunch (yikes!) at the nursing home!

Worst case scenario Tootie is no longer with us and I have to spend the day being merry around cunts that spent fuck all time with their dying mother/grandmother.

I don’t know whether to tell Mum that I simply cannot be there because I find it traumatic or just calling in sick on the day 🥲🥲
I hate lying about my health, I think it’s bad karma BUT maybe just this one time…?

Last year I required valium in the car & edibles when I got home.

Managed to get a pedicure this late in the game!

But my hair.. 😬 unless there’s a christmas miracle will not be refreshed until FEBRUARY 😭

The only spare time she had was the evening that I’m dancing with dear friends to All I Want For Xmas Is You.
Look, I’m not thrilled about it BUT I do like dancing w friends and eating & going on adventures afterwards 🤗🤗