@davidcampey @BananaBarrow @jenniferplusplus

The very short version is that I was very depressed. I felt worthless, I had only a couple of friends, and my girlfriend, who I had felt was the only person who could love me, had broken up with me before college.

On top of that, both because of neudivergence, and because of the depression, I didn't socialize well. I didn't say hello, I would blurt things out in a blunt and thoughtless way, etc.

It made it even harder to make friends- and basically impossible to meet, nonetheless have meaningful connections with women.

In the winter of 1997, I learned about "Linux", in part from a friend, and in part from a homeless man who slept in the computer lab I worked at.

I didn't go home that winter break. I stayed in the dorms. For part of it, I wasn't even allowed to return to my own dorm room, having to be in a temporary dorm. My computer was too big to lug, so it stayed in my dorm.

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