aevaI've been thinking a lot lately about the art education I got 20 years ago, and the importance that was placed upon learning how to really see what is in front of you, how to deconstruct the technical aspects of other works, looking at a lot of art, collecting good reference images, and talking about art.
This process is really important for developing and maintaining the technical skills of working in traditional media, because if you are not able to establish cultural and observational reference points you lose the ability to "see" as you work. Like, after you have been working on something for several hours everything sorta looks correct and wrong at the same time, and if you don't have something to ground it you'll drift in ways you don't want to.
It is also a really important set of skills for learning, because you can go to an art museum and look at works that inspire you and figure out (or make an educated guess at) the technical processes that their author used to make them, and then you can apply your learnings to making something new. You don't go to the museum to find things to copy without understanding.
One of my peers from that art program once remarked to me that she's seen interesting things happen in the works of artists that either don't have this training or only reference art made by other amateurs - work that is not anchored in either a cultural tradition or naturalistic observation or both tends to drift in strange ways
my point to all of this is, I don't at all believe you can look at / watch / read / listen to something and not be changed by it even in a small way. the human brain is a hungry for patterns to learn from, and everything you learn is eventually pruned or mutated through continuous re-encoding. you need to keep absorbing high quality examples and information throughout your career to preserve your skills. I think this applies generally.
this is why I think slop is so damaging, especially so as it gets harder to spot, because you're feeding yourself with vacuous garbage that superficially resembles information. if you accept it as valid, every related skill that you've worked hard to sharpen up to that point is fundamentally at risk because as they get re-encoded they will be adapted to accommodate the miscategorized noise.
now, not everything you see in the world is going to help your career as an artist, and I think it's true that there's plenty of things you can internalize that are destructive to your ability to make the things you want to make. that sounds pretentious, but I don't think it is: a simple example is internalizing the idea that you shouldn't make art because you don't already have the skills to do it with perfection is effective at preventing many from ever developing those skills.
anyways, my conclusion from this right now is it may be a good idea as a professional programmer who wishes to retain her hard earned skills, to make a regular habit of going to the museum as it were~~regularly reading the source code of successful projects that have non-superficial high standards, understanding how it works, why it works, why it is the way it is, and also looking at the history of how it grew over time.
I say "non-superficial" because strict adherence to a random grab bag of engineering best practices is not holding yourself to high standards if you don't understand any of them. That's just posturing.
Evie 🏳️⚧️@aeva I like this as a reference of what happens when NIH takes over https://www.youtube.com/@Wintergatan
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@pupxel I had to unsubscribe from his channel. it got too painful to watch after a time. the first marble machine was perfect and "I need to make a better one" is something that consumed him.
Will
Irenes (many)@ireneista @aeva @pupxel Oh, I surely don't mean to imply it seems like he's *enjoying* himself. Just that, based mostly on production values, Youtube seems to be a lot more financially lucrative than being a musician.
Sandrockcstm, in space!@aeva @pupxel I had the same experience. I actually think the second version was a fantastic art piece. It looked cool, it was functionally interesting, and it was very much in the Rube Goldberg style if "over complicate a simple task on purpose". But his obsession with making it able to "go on a world tour" was an albatross around his neck he could never get past. The irony to me is that he handed it over to a museum and they *finished it* within a year.
It still can't tour. But it's complete.
@Sandrockcstm @pupxel amazing so he never actually finished it?!?!
Fabian Giesen@aeva These last few years have broken something deep within me and I have no idea what to do with myself now.
It's not about the generative whatever particularly, that's certainly not helped but it's mostly yet another manifestation of something that's been eating at me for way longer.
Paul Lalonde@aeva I want to understand, and to be understood.
That's not the only thing about me, but it's a core tenet about my personality and my construction of identity.
Almost everything I do flows from that in one way or another.
That's why I default to these long, rambling info-dumps, for example.
@aeva Probably my most formative single childhood experience is, over and over and over again, running into and beyond the limits of what my parents were able to explain to me (they really tried, but especially pre-internet, which this was, you run into a wall of how many difficult research-requiring questions of a precocious child you can actually answer in any given day), and likewise, my continuing inability to explain what's in my head.
@aeva My parents were gracious about this, other adults in my life, less so.
Shout-out to the teachers at my nursery school who decided that a 4yo couldn't possibly actually want to know how a differential transmission worked and that therefore I must be some attention-whoring little bitch who loves to pick up words I don't understand and who should really shut the fuck up. (Not in those words, mind - this was a CATHOLIC pre-school! - but the sentiment was there.)
@aeva er, lots more to unpack there I guess (not for here!) but suffice it to say that the preemptive infodumping is a tic I picked up right around that time (I was verbal pretty early, but the infodumping started then - there's "video evidence" from my uncle, who had a camcorder. Very clear diff between me before/after entering nursery school).
So, er, yeah. Some damage there. Anyway, the over-explaining/desperately wanting to be understood has _deep_ roots.
Kraftwerk-Das Model Collapse@rygorous @aeva low five I guess (as in, pretty sure in my case it's rooted in physical abuse), but on the not so low hand - what are we even doing without mutual understanding? (for me the attitude has taken me to strange places, e.g. I can truly emotionally empathize with Nazis)
it also explains why I feel like I'm actively taking brain damage any time I read slop code - I invariably find something that doesn't make sense, become hyperaware of my mind WANTING it to
@rygorous @aeva make sense but also knowing it CAN'T because LLMs literally don't know shit and WANTING SO BAD to explain things to the model but of course that's equally futile and will only get me flattery and deference shaped results but never any insight from this simulacrum of a conversation partner that short circuits/abuses trust and connection and I (muffled screaming)
@aeva More to the actual point, like it or not, this has just turned into a schema of what I look for in personal relationships.
(It's just been really hard all my life to find anyone who can actually follow along when I get going.)
Anyway. What does this have to do with the current mess? I'm getting there, but first another, much more recent episode.
@aeva This was a few years ago, on Twitter.
A mutual, who I'd met in person, replied to me posting a link to a new blog post with something to the effect of "Oh great! Always love your posts. Usually don't understand a word though."
They thought they were giving me a compliment, what they actually gave me were the seeds of an existential crisis.
And I know it was hyperbole, but the "don't understand a word" has been living rent-free in my head ever since.
@aeva It's one thing if at some point two thirds through a post I go off on some tangent that matters to me but that 95% of readers don't care about.
But "don't understand a word"? I really, _really_ try to make my technical writing as clear as I know how to and if the end result is, apparently, incomprehensible gobbledygook, then what the fuck is the point of writing any of it in the first place?
@aeva So that's _that_ light-hearted tangent.
Now, finally, on to my actual point.
As alluded to in both of these digressions, I deeply care both about understanding what I am doing, and about being understood.
Often to my detriment. I shouldn't care as much as I do. It's not something I can turn off. And like it or not, it's directly intertwined with my need for human connection.
@aeva Figuring out a solution to a problem, having a seed of understanding within it, and getting to share that seed with others is, not to mince words, the only reason I put up with any of this shit.
A friend mentioned his pet theory a while back that shepherding LLMs sucks for people who like programming because that means now they have to be managers and that's a different skill set.
@aeva That's not _entirely_ wrong but it's missing the point by a mile if you ask me.
It _is_ a different kind of activity, but it's not "management" either.
You get to play-act as the world's worst micro-manager constantly telling your "agents", who never learn a damn thing, to try again.
Mentoring or managing somebody (hopefully!) involves some kind of development where they learn something and grow into their position.
@aeva That's not what's happening here.
You're in a groundhog day loop with an intern with infinite stamina, ADHD and hopped up on 3 cans of Monster Energy cranking out piles of code between bouts of tachycardia, and every hour they hit the neuralyzer and need everything explained all over again.
I don't know what ring of hell exactly this is, but it _is_ a ring of hell, and it's not "management" by any sane definition of the term.
@aeva Mind, I'm not actually doing any of this stuff. But. BUT.
There are _so many_ people around me who are, apparently, dead set on treating the scenario I just described like it's a desirable outcome instead of a dystopian nightmare, and actively working towards it.
I guess if you treat programs as some necessary evil that's a speed barrier between you and all your glorious plans working out, there's some sense to that.
@aeva It just so happens to be that if you're some misguided rube like me, apparently, who cares about how programs can be some concrete embodiment of entirely abstract ideas that you could otherwise never communicate to anyone, this is just casually shitting on your life's work and going "yeah who needs THAT".
And I _hate_ how this sounds melodramatic and petty but I have no other words for it.
@aeva This is not about the tools themselves. There's _so many_ problems there, and much has been written about it, but that's not what I'm getting at.
The thing that's _really_ getting to me is just how much of the SW world, including so many people around me, is going "oh yes, finally" about this.
I've always felt pretty alone in my caring about things the way I do but was telling myself that I did find my people who care about things the same way in the end. Evidently, no.
Daniel Fortes@rygorous @aeva I just want to say this: Thank you for these words. I have always followed the stuff you write. I am not an extremely accomplished developer or anything, and it has been rough lately. I'm getting tired of being disappointed, seeing people I had only respect for joyfully hoping on the hype train (that will end who knows where), so it gives me some solace when I see technically talented people like you that still have their heart in the right place
Daniel Gibson@rygorous @aeva
I find this very relatable, thanks for putting it into words <3
Yes, this whole mindset that code quality and understanding "your" code doesn't matter (when overall software quality wasn't too great even before LLMs) is a dystopian nightmare that I don't know how to deal with.
It's just a form of ignorance that doesn't compute for me at all and I don't want to work with people who think like that
Cameron Watters@rygorous There are at least a few of us still around with zero (or negative?) interest in LLMs who enjoy building excellent software and find co-creating with other humans an essential aspect of software creation.
John Kaniarz@rygorous @aeva The impression I get from the “oh yes, finally” developers is that this is actually release from their hell. They’ve been the LLM for the past decade. Cutting and pasting from Stack Overflow. Playing guess and check with the automated A/B testers in production. Agile practices that only work when everyone is an interchangeable cog. Now they’re finally free… until the LLMs replace them entirely.
SnowFox@rygorous @aeva I care about my code, and I also care about tracking down why other people's code is the way it is and will chase down a line of code past moves/reformats until I find where it was introduced.
It saddens me that in the future I'll increasingly chase a curiosity down to its initial commit and be left wondering whether it came out of an LLM.
(Tangent re: understanding code, my personal guideline is to write code so it is easiest to *understand* as a whole, which sometimes means longer lines with shorter variable names, even if it makes it "harder" to read line-by-line. I'm sure the corporate style guide hates that!)
Aras Pranckevičius@rygorous all of this resonates. There (still?) are people in SW world who care about things very deeply. Maybe dozens of them!
btw, I am reading your posts or info-dump threads here or on slack, and I do understand everything!
@rygorous @aeva the whole ordeal has been tremendously isolating indeed, and I was already pretty cut off by becoming heavily disabled due to Long Covid - turns out a lot of people abandon you quite dramatically if you have"nothing to offer" anymore, or remind them of a still looming danger they'd rather put a firm lid on. And yeah I do think these things are connected on a larger scale, later Covid years were a masterclass in politics normalizing sending reality to a nice farm
Dominik Grabiec@rygorous @aeva I've got to add that I completely feel the same way.
I like to write code, design systems, and solve problems. I even like to (try to) educate people and see them grow and improve.
But all around me, in the media, in the environment, some people I work with are all in on this LLM nonsense and believe it to be the future.
I know this all won't go well and it hurts me looking at this slow moving inevitable train wreck that is unfolding.
I just don't get it.
@rygorous @aeva for what is worth, your blog and your infodumps have been part of a transformative experience for me. I was ready to give up after more than a decade spent in random best practices and oop stuff and it felt all so empty. Then I found out there are still people that care about the things I like, and they even like to share! Sometimes all you need is exposition and I really needed to be exposed to your kind of infodumps and blog posts. Thank you
mmby@rygorous @aeva the ironic thing is, I earn money programming and I do visual art on the side
in a different life I'd be making art for money. I was hit by the alienation of "look at our generative anisotropic filters copying your art" and now it's the code, which I also consider a channel for expression.
It's the same sort of alienation
Stefan Reinalter
The Seven Voyages Of Steve@rygorous @aeva I feel this. Part of the reason I’ve published so much of my source code over the last 30 years is that I treasured the way other people doing this helped me learn the craft when I had little opportunity to learn otherwise, and I wanted to do that for others. Now that seemingly so many people just want to feed all this into a knowledge mulcher and pour the resulting slurry into a mould, it’s completely taken the wind out of my sails.
Jimmy Lefevre@rygorous @aeva I learned programming by following Handmade Hero, then watching Jon, then reading your and Charles' articles on software rasterization and compression. There's something about the Handmade Hero trailer that always makes me tear up.
This was all in my free time, mind. I was sure everything would be fine once I started going to uni for CS, and became extremely disillusioned when I subsequently realized nobody cared about truly, deeply understanding software.
Alex Celeste, Princess Consort of Burnout
Lynx@rygorous @aeva This reminds me of something I've been saying for... Multiple decades now, I think? 😬
I've always felt there's a huge difference between programmers who do it as a job and view the actual design and coding as just required annoyances, and those who care about the process, the design, learning more about what they're doing, and generally being an enthusiast. I know who I will always choose to work with, if given a choice.
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Matúš Chochlík@rygorous @aeva I'm a technical guy, but for some reason in the last four companies I worked at I ended up very quickly in some sort of glorified middle management but still technical position like team lead, tech lead, architect, whatever. what you describe quite resembles my experience of working with some of my human colleagues and it is incredibly exhausting and probably the main reason I can't stand using "AI" agents.
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