#MissKittyWide My whole life I have been two things even though I've been a lot of other things and sometimes covering these two up. One, a Pollyanna. I believe in the best. Unceasingly. Even when I whine and bitch I know better. Underneath of it. Two, out in space. Interesting.
So many negative connotations with being spaced out. Lost in outer space. Are you a fucking astronaut? 😹😹😹 But this disaster that we're experiencing together is forcing me to not speak the way I normally would so that people don't take me as uncaring. I have dissociated my whole life.
I don't think I have a problem because that's what happens in meditation too. If I'm not this human, and I claim that I am only temporarily experiencing it, so I am not it, then of course that distancing is normal. It's not that I don't care, but that is part of my #natural #mental #state.
And I think that it's useful. I think that it's an incredibly useful #skill. #Mind #technology is the only weapon we have. The enemy has all the guns. If we do not out think them and outwork them, it's going to be a long fucking ugly. Don't try and get me to talk about violence. I'll run you out.
I am the tip of the spear in my mind. I owe younger people for this fucking awful mess even though my #parents shit all over me and the people before them shit all over them and it's a fucking disgusting awful place to be. #Earth is a fucking #toilet, at least right now.
The #distance helps me think cuz I have no personal involvement in the answer. I think that's how come I come up with some of the things that I do. I have zero concern apart from immediate fear responses, I am not so composed I could face death w/o fear, but I have a profound respect for reality ...