#Energy.

There was a crucial step forward in my thinking, at some point—one of those quantum leap thingummies, you could say—after which I realized that the loosey-goosey talk about "raising energy" which I'd encountered in the 1999-2001 (ish) Seattle pagan community wasn't nonsense. There were genuine exchanges of physical energy, dimly perceived by the magical practitioner.

I remember being new to such talk, as a curious student of the occult wandering in from a very different region of the academic community. I was an obnoxious Berdly-ish science geek at one time. Subsequent encounters with fantasy and #magic had given me a different perspective perhaps, but the science-geek tendencies were still quite strong in those early pagan years. I was irritated with how all those earnest but dopey white Seattle Wiccans talked about "energy" and "vibrations", even though it turns out they did touch upon the truth.

I was rather too much into "skepticism" of the tedious Neil Tyson or Michael Shermer sort, for a few years. Colliding with Caltech set in motion various intellectual processes that would break through the defences of that youthful commitment to skepticism, but for a chunk of adolescent years, centered roughly around 1990-92, I was into "debunking" and James Randi and, later, Penn and Teller.

It has taken a long time to dismantle the worst of those old habits, which have gotten in the way of our studying magic and the occult (and other things). And the work is far from over! We grew up with U.S. and "Western" scientists and academics all round us, absorbed their way of talking and discoursing about things. There's still a lot of residual aversion to touching anything as silly and (gasp) forbidden as occult lore.

I'd like to point out something that I hope is now obvious to most persons: it may have been fun in the 1980s and especially the 1990s (once the GOP had finally suffered some political setbacks) to be a "skeptic" of the most irritating sort, slinging insults and ten-cent "debunkings" at anyone who professed belief in nonsense, or whatever was judged in the heat of the moment to be nonsense.

It sure seemed like entertainment, or at least a way to pass the time, when I was rotting away in a Caltech dorm room and I couldn't sleep, so I'd page through Usenet arguments to pass the time and try to convince myself that I was seeing something vital and important to humanity. A great Debate™. A Discourse™. An international Conversation™.

Oh I had precious ideas about the #Internet, when it was my newest toy (roughly 1993).

There's people who still conduct themselves thus on a round-the-clock basis, and there's many billionaires who claim that they want #technology to be a democratizing force, enabling the international Conversation™ and all that. They politicized the #Internet (by inviting politicians to advertise there, chiefly) and want it to stay that way (although they themselves claim to be apolitical and devoted to freedom of speech) and they say this is a good thing: it's good that the marginalized should forever be locked in "debate" with the powerful.

So, early 1990s "debate me" culture from Usenet still rules corporate #socialmedia. There's still people talking like those "skeptics" and "debunkers" I used to hang out with in high school and then Caltech.

For the defect of the dedicated "skeptic" is that it's not actually possible to disbelieve everything at once—not if you want to stay within the bounds of popularly accepted sanity—and so the hardcore skeptic develops lines of belief and faith within themselves, they evolve an ideology through clinging to certain principles harder than others, but the skeptic refuses to acknowledge the existence of such boundaries.

They do not easily deal with the reminder that there really ARE certain things in their imagination and their rhetoric which they take on faith, which they simply assume to be true without being able to prove them, because they're now committed to the public pose of steely rationality. So the irrational flaps around their thinking and their behavior anyway, but under poor control and without public acknowledgment, except in perhaps the most oblique of ways.

Evangelical #Christianity has been thoroughly colonized by rationalist "debate me" skepticism. They have somehow arrived at the position that belief in Christianity is a rational proposition, and the most brazen of the crowd likes to say things such as, "I used to be an #atheist but then I got too skeptical." Geddit?

They've pieced together a tissue of Christian apologetics from various sources—a sort of collective popular exegesis of the faith—which enables such Christians to claim that the structures of the physical world and the laws of science are wholly consonant with their beliefs. Conversely, they accuse the larger scientific community of being hopelessly corrupted by "woke ideology" and Communism and [slur goes here] and other such evils.

So now the Christian extremist and the nominally godless "rationalist" are starting to talk very much alike. There's some degree of professional camaraderie in fact between the celebrity skeptics (such as Richard Dawkins and Michael Shermer) and elements of ultra-right Christianity. They do "debates" with each other, and they happen to agree that whatever problems they have with each other, they pale in comparison to the evils of "woke" and Communism and Islam and so forth.

Richard Dawkins has even said that some form of "cultural Christianity" is good for civilization, perhaps as a beneficial precursor to the establishment of scientific authority.

It doesn't say much for "skepticism", as a cause or a political alignment, that the most famous people on Earth who make a special point of calling themselves "skeptics" are making political buddies with Christofascists. Something has clearly gone wrong with their skepticism—but that's what happens when you try to elevate a personality trait to the status of a governing virtue.

There's only a limited number of cardinal virtues for a reason. There are a lot of human qualities reckoned as generally positive but not many of them can withstand the full burden of maintaining the integrity of a human SOUL.

Add to them the "contrarians" and the "optimists" and the "accelerationists" and the "centrists" and everyone else who tried to fasten themselves onto a poor excuse for a principle. To be centered is important, but one must reckon a center off other things, more substantial entities than centers. Heck, even a simple triangle has thousands of centers! (q.v. the Encyclopedia of Triangle Centers, https://faculty.evansville.edu/ck6/encyclopedia/etc.html)

It turns out that it's important to believe in things, abstract things. Human happiness seems to require us to have a certain baseline degree of faith in things which are not immediately apparent. It is necessary for human beings to have a sense of object permanence, and the feeling that if they see something odd and point it out to other people, everyone else will see basically the same thing.

ENCYCLOPEDIA OF TRIANGLE CENTERS

It's just this sense of permanence, of baseline faith in a Universe that's perceived as roughly the same by everyone else, which #fascism wishes to destroy. They wish to destroy the solidity and stability of the Present, so they can chain humanity to a fixed vision of the Future as an eternal conflict between Good and Evil, a Future which is said to be the revival of a glorious Past. In a sense, they need the Present to be always miserable, and thus a reminder both of the vanished Past and the shining goals of the Future.